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actually... some things are better not to know than to know.
but now that i do know...... i can't pretend that i don't.
i have to say that it affects me quite a bit... and i somehow feel quite bad.
this is happening too fast.. and it was unexpected. i didn't really thought that it will be so bad. okay well, actually i thought that it was quite bad..but not to this extend.
i wonder how would you feel after knowing about this? happy, sad or guilty?
but i guess there is nothing i can do now, but to cherish the time that is left.
people usually say that '' you will only know how to treasure things once you lose them." will i regret? hmmm.. to prevend what i hate to do the most, which is to regret, i shall cherish the remaining time.
one day you'll know.
why can't things just stay the same? why must you make such a choice? do u really think is fair? just beacause of one reason and you give up the rest?
sorry, i am a little angry. i'm angry at you for walking away like that.
i always thought that the reason was because u didn't have a choice.
always thought that you would like to, but you just can't.
why can't you just be brave enough to take up the challenge? do u realised that you'll benefit more? you'll make other's happier? make other's life easier?
is this just being plain selfish or what?
i kind of feel cheated.
i really wish that i could say all this to you right now, but i know i just can't.
but i'll wait for that very day, when i can ask for all your explainations.
really...
some things are better for you to not know than to know.
because it might really hurt.
and moreover, you might not be able to share it with others.
maybe it must only be kept in your heart.
why can't things be the same again?
it will be so much more of a happy ending.
it will definitely be MY happy ending.
for now, i'll wait till then.
for now, i'll keep this deep down in my heart.
8/14/2006
Jazreel
SCGS
RP
14 Jan '91
jazreellim91@hotmail.com