My Island.

29 April 2005

today we cleared quite a lot of things up with the bballers.i find it good cos now i feel more comfortable after letting some things out. but the sad part is to see pple crying halfway through the "talk" :'(
hope that everything will be fine and we can continue to work hard TOGETHER for our july's southzone competition.
today was a bad day for me as well..sigh. i just CANT do that stupid " crab walk" during training!! i was really D-Y-I-N-G!! and i was the only one!! my legs were really hurting v badly when i do the crab walk..i felt really really useless!! i felt so sorry and disappointed when i stood up and jiao lian kept saying "liling come on dont give up!''

after doing it 3 to 4 times i really broke down.both physically and emotionally.
i dont know why i just felt that i was going to die. i felt dizzy hence felt like vomitting. i guess it was because during the crab walk i kept on looking down..so my blood cannot flow well then i got "low blood pressure" thats why i felt faint.so sad...miss practically the whole of training=(
i want to go to the gym to train all of my muscles!!!
btw.. thanks rui for helping me when i wasnt feeling well just now(: i appreciate it thanks!
and at the end of training we spoke to jiaolian about our own progress.sadly..she didnt say much about me.she just said not bad but i have to be more aggressive.and she also said that i am too weak and i cannot get in my shots during matches.or rather i cannot work under pressure-_-'' so the more i have to go to the gym to strengthen my muscles!!!

this few days have been quite troubled due to quite a number of things.
firstly is about my results.sec is abt bball.third is about stuff that happened in class. forth is abt the class's discipline.fifth is abt the school's discipline.
sigh..so much to think of..so much to do...

to my surprise right, i passed my geog test!!whahahaha really really shocked! didnt expect to get that high(although not tt high but i'm happy), i thought i will fail!!hehe=pp
but i indeed failed my sci!! and is really really bad!! this is the worst result i ever get in my whole entire life!!arrghhh..who on earth will get such marks like me???! -dead
and my chinese!!ohmygoodness! i want to kill myself for that! my chinese dropped like mad!!mad!!!mad!!! i am going to work hard for all my subjects man!and i must make sure i will get my 70(at least) for chinese!!

gonna have prefects' board meeting tmrw.gonna have a meeting with ms heng,mr ang and ms kim i guess.then after that i gtg for training.
gtg and sleep now..my head is starting to hurt again...ta.

4/29/2005

23 April 2005

yeah! napfa is finally over! so means that 2.4 is over too!!=D i HATE running!!
i'm surprised with my napfa results this year.i can't believe that i got an A for everything and a C or sit and reach..
i seriously cannot stretch for nuts man!and i can't believe that i actually did 18 ipu??!! my target was only 10!lol. tts y my arm muscles are aching right now-_-'' see how lousy i am? 18 ipu can already kill my muscles .my weight is just way too heavy for my arm muscles..thats why i cant do even 1 push up!sigh...

yesyesyes..i got wat i wanted.i scored 70 for my recent chinese test.i thought that i will be happy, but i wasnt at all.i realised how badly i have done for this test! i'm fine with all the sections except the comprehension!! ohmygoodness!! i got the WHOLE of my freaking last page(comprehension) wrong!!! arrrghHHHH!! i almost cried when i saw my last page....
i once AGAIN regret spending so much of my time on the previous sections!i must work faster FasTER FASTER!!!!!!!!!!! i know the answers...but i just didnt have the time to think carefully..so i just anyhow write.and so this is what i got.=..( my tution teacher was like telling me that this wasnt a difficult passage..so i shouldnt be scoring so badly..but i did. therefore she asked me to read more chinese books to improve my chinese.well..she said that she will bring some books for me to read...
i have to really force myself to read chinese books i guess..cos whenever i see chinese books i always feel like sleeping n i will take ages to finish reading a book -_-'' thats why in my life i will nv read chinese books unless i am forced to or i am interested in certain books.ha.
now my new target is 75. can i hit that?i really wonder...

didnt go for training today cos i have fever.i felt weak when i woke up this morning..
ytd had training as well. i dont know why when i ran twice, back and fro of the court i was panting like anything!and i had ZERO energy left and i felt like puking so badly! is either i really have V BAD stamina or there is just something wrong with me!
mrs bowness spoke to me ytd. she said that she wants me to shot with one hand instead of two!i mean i know one is better, but i dont see y cant i shoot with two hands?!
last year i always shot with one hand..then i realised that how inaccurate i was so i decided to train myself by shooting with two hands.and i did it so i'm sticking to it. but now..she wants me to shoot with one hand again??! ohman!! i have long ago lost that sense already!and now i got to find it back!sigh.. i am gonna have a hard time cos there is not much time left..but mrs b said that it is not too late to practise now!
but i am a slow learner for goodness sake..i cant get my shots in accurately in two months time!! unless i practise like day and night..but sorry i dont have that much time. or unless i am not getting into the team then i will have a LONG time to practise.......

4/23/2005

14 April 2005

as usual..i am feeling v tired....
didnt have napfa....it will be on this coming monday instead-_-'' die!
today i went to hillcrest rd to look for paints with li shan and sharmine(koh).preparing for some teachers' day stuff.i know its super early now...but we just have to prepare...

i am really scared..really really scared for my sci and geog.but i'm feeling more scared for my sci!!!! i think for all of my digrams i will get zero larh!! i am serious..a real ZERO! i just cannot apply what i have learned..sigh..sorry mrs cha..i'm 100% sure that i will fail my sci=..( but its not that i didnt study..is that the way i studied was wrong! things tt are more impt i didnt study well for it..whereas the least impt ones i studied like siao!sighsighsighsigh...i dont wanna faiL!! i dont want to get into single sci!! arrghHH!!!

the next test will be chinese.no lit.cos it will be an assignment instead.SO....that means that i have more time to focus on my chinese now..and so this time round i must get at least 70!!! but ms belle tan said that it will be very difficult...so how??!! arrghhh!

haix....in life, there is so much to think and worry abt..

4/14/2005

10 April 2005

i just came back from running.and i am dying...as in really dying!! i dont know y..i just ran a simple 1km plus and i am already feeling dead tired! when i stopped running..i dont know y i just felt dizzy..felt like fainting.arrghhh!!?? wat's the matter with me???!! my stamina has dropped like siao...like anything..howhowhow?? tmrw is already napfa!!my 2.4km! i tot of just "warming" myself up today so that i wont get easily tired tmrw..but this is wat i have got.i'm really disappointed with myself..i must at least get a B tmrw!!must!!

4/10/2005

just got back lots of tests.didnt really do very well for any.except of maths.i didnt do really that well for maths..just that i improved thats all.but i'm still happy(: so is mrs choo.hahahaha.i love mrs choo!!she is the best maths teacher man!she scare us cos she sad that there are 12 failures and those whom have done well for the previous test, did not do well for this test. everyone was like HUH??! i was damn scared also larh!!then when i received my paper back..i start seeing my marks fr the back pages first.when i was looking half way..
mrs choo said " so how zazzreel(she meant jazreel.but she cannot say it properly-_-'')? are u happy with ur results?" -she said it with a smile.how rare.-
i was telling myself "HUH?? i havent seen my marks yet..dont come and frighten me!" so i decided to just see my marks straight away.YEAH! i was soo happy!hahahahahaha. but i dont think i can do well for my next maths test..cos number patterns are v difficult for me=(

on tues gonna have geog and sci tests! i hate this two combination of tests!! i wonder y on earth did they put two mugging subjects together??cant they put like maybe eng with geog or smth? really mad man. i cant do well for both geog and sci cos i cannot absorb so much at one go but i have to for this two tests-_-" i must really do well for this two coming up tests. otherwise i will let both mrs cha and mrs chan down again.actually come to think of it they have been quite encouraging.hahha esp mrs cha!she is so cute!! i remb that day in sci lab she said to me "go jazreel!dont give up, u can do it!
hahaha i was touched man.lol.
for mrs chan...she has this weird way of encouarging me.i didnt feel encouraged though...she just make me feel that i beta do well or else i will die.hymp!mrs cha is beta!

4/10/2005

06 April 2005

went for dental ytd..now my teeth hurts like hell!!arggghh!!cannot stand it! i cant eat anything i like now..i have to eat porridge...but lucky i'm fine with it.
after dental ytd went with cheryl to crepes and cream to eat bakerice.after that went ard to shop for a lil while.we went in to flash and splash and we saw this v nice ripcurl bag(: we want it!hahaha. maybe next cheryl and i can go together and buy it(:
next we went to this hallmark shop to see cards.AND... cheryl was looking for a card to give to yim tong in AUGUST!can u believe it??!! AUGUST??? what a long way more to go man!! i think she is mad...but it was quite fun looking at cards..but i was v tired..so dont really have e mood.

went home and watched true files 3 and missing.ohmygosh!!so scary! esp missing!! i cant believe tt there are such pple on earth!! bcos of money...they so called "kidnap" a five year old boy?!! it happened in 1972 and he is still not found yet!! by now..he is already a 44 year old guy!! whether or not he is alive..no one knows. but there was once they suspected that he was in bombay cos one of the father's friend went to india and saw a begger begging for money whom resembles his father. omgosh..the boy is really poor thing..cos he only has the knowledge of abt a 5 year old kid cos he was kidnap at that age and did not receive anymore education since then.so all he knows is only his name and his country.and looked really poor thing.it was very upsetting to see him in that kind of state.
the man whom took e boy away is a TOTALLY HORRID PEROSN WHOM DOES NOT HAVE A HEAET AT ALL!!!!

i always believe that no matter how bad a person is, they will still always have a good sid. and i always believe that every one has a kind heart.even if they are really bad..they will still at least have a tiny winy bit of a kind heart.at least a bit! cos i believe every has their own conscience. but come to think abt it now..i think i'm wrong...

ohwell..and we have changed our sitting plan today.now i am sitting if lauren tan.i got to try and get use to the sudden change of place and partner...but i miss my old sit=(

4/06/2005

02 April 2005

yeahyeahyeaheyeah!!!! 2PR rocks!!! WE ARE CLASS CHAMPION!!!=DDD

all thanks to all the runners who put in lots of effort to make 2pr the champion!!
it was sports day ytd!! i had quite a fun time cheerin at the stadium.hahaha.
marching ytd was quite screwed...i forgot to turn my head!!arrghhh... but i did when it almost come to the end...and some pple tripped over the metal thing...hui fang marched with left hand up left leg up right hand up right leg up!!!HAHAHAHa...it was supposed to be the opposit way..lol..but in the end she realised that she was wrong so she changed.and amelia marched on the wrong lane so she quickly marched back to the correct lane.soo fun!!hahaha.
i used the men's toilet ytd cos the girl's toilet was full...i asked yi rui to guard the door for me to stop the man fr coming in..LOL.thanks lots.
went out with some bballers for lunch ytd and then went out with amelia and michelle.first we went to novena sq then we went to bugis.we met ms LOO and ms ee and amelia's obs instructor.haha.

today i am supposed to go and run 2.4 with amelia at toa payoh stadium after tuition..but my mum didnt allow me cos she said that i look so tired already and yet i still want to over exert myself.*and the nagging goes on...* so i am not going...but since i have promised amelia that i will go out i with her so i am going to have dinner with her tonight(:

4/02/2005