My Island.

25 March 2005

sorry..hasnt been blogging lately.was too busy with tests and stuff.kinda stressed..thats y my mood and temper are going down and going bad each time.so sorry if i have been really bad this few days-_-''
well..its just like that.whenever ther is any tests coming up..my mood will be dampened and my temper will be very short.so e pple ard me bear with me ks=pp

i have missed out on a lot of exciting and interesting "events" to talk abt..for ex. kl. but i wont be wrtting abt it anymore..cos i dont want to type a long story.so to cut it short, i will just say that.. this trip is quite a good experience for all of us.played against two schools.we lost one, won one. and throughout the two matches, i didnt play well.not at all. really bad.and i shall not elaborate on that.
and i love the shopping there! its wow! sunway lagoon was fun too.esp the rollar coaster. for this trip, i think i shld say that its a rather emotional one.cos during the 4 days we cried a lot. or maybe its just me.

i went for cedar's investiture today. their invest is diff fr us in a sense that they make it a LEADERS invest.monitresses,cca leaders,peer leaders and prefects.so many of them.whereas for us is just the prefects' invest.i cannot really comment on their performances cos this is my first time going to other skools to watch an invest.but amelia said that cedar's invest is considered the best one out of the 2 she went.and to me cedar's invest isnt that nice.they are kind of messy and have no originality.and i yawned more than 5 times there! so pai sey=pp but the pple there are nice..very friendly(:
so after all our invest was so much beta..its the best man=pp opps...

went home with yx today and she dropped her wallet into the gap between the mrt and the platform.cos this stupid man pushed her and her wallet flew out of her hand.aiya stupid guy...now yx has to wait until the mrt stops in order to get her wallet back.and as she said..she hope that her things are not burned.lol. poor yx.

yeah!tmrw is good friday!so means that i can have a veryvery good sleep(:(:(:(:

3/25/2005

14 March 2005

last sat went to macritchie,the treetop, with the prefects.26 of us including mr ang walked like crazy.it was a prefects outing.mr ang said that there will be birds..but i didnt see any=p i only saw monkeys!cute!!
and guess what!? we walked 15km in total!!-_-'' very tiring.

on sunday,i went out with rui to queensway to get running shorts for KL.we talked quite a lot abt bball..and realised that we all really need to improved.both in characters and skills.i really cannot imagine how we will be like in southzone.i really have no idea??!

and today..i went back to school prefects' "seminar"- effective communication.
it was fine..but everyone was feeling very panicky when they have to make their "speech".of cos..i was superly scared!i really cannot take this kind of things.i will really get SUPER nervous!but this how workshop was quite fun.the teachers were very funny!hhahahaha.and we learned how to be a "MC'..hehe.and learned how to hold a microphone properly.and after that i went out with my amica grp(michelle chee). we combined grps with eunice,lyn and sam's grp.wahhaha.we all went to scotts and eat.
after that they went to catch a movie.hitch if i'm not wrong.i wanna watch it toO!but i didnt want to go cos i got to come home and pack for KL. i better start packing now...leaving for KL tmrw morning.will only be back on fri. hope the KL trip will be fun!and most importantly..i hope that we will be more bonded than before(:

3/14/2005

08 March 2005

after so many months, the ''fear'' has still been with me.i thought that it will only stay for a while...but i'm wrong. at first, i thought that i have already overcome it..but i'm wrong.i do know that it takes time..but i never knew that it will take this long.or maybe its just only me.i have told myself many times that i must overcome it..i MUST overcome it..but,i cant.

i hesitate always...i always hesitate.actually maybe not always..but i can say that i do most of the time.is everyone sharing the same problem as me?or have they already overcome it long ago?am i the only one?
it seems to be. i dont see anyone hesitating or fearing at this "stage".maybe at the beginning yes..but not now!it has been quite a long time already..but..but...i am still the same.i know i have already "improved" a little..but there is still a long long way to go before i really overcome it.i really do not know when..where and how (???!!) am i going to do it??i think i'm just the worst worst worst one!!

everyone seems to be enjoying themselves.not in a sense of having fun..but at least i dont see anyone feeling scared.they can just do it as and when they know they have to.but me?? i think twice..think thrice... and i know i have to..i JUST have to..but i just cant do it!

is this meant for me?or it's a mistake for me?

3/08/2005

05 March 2005

camP! woohoo!

on the first day of camp was quite a disappointing one.cos the weather was going against us.we didnt manage to do the high ropes.we just did rock climbing and the swinging thing.i was very happy cos i managed to climb to the top of the wall..hehe.before i left for camp, that was the target i set for myself..and i did it! yeah!the trainers in camp were all super enthu!they taught us lots of funny stuff!like the cheers and all.they were all so creative!!i love all the cheers!miss all of it lots!

and on the second day, we went for urban challenge and it was so fuN!but it was quite tiring too though.i remb the first stop was far east sq.then toa payoh,ang mo kio,kent ridge park and back to campsite.it might sound very little but we took like the whole day going to all this places.and each place we had to ans questions.the questions that were most difficult to solve was at ang mo kio.cos its rather a ''strange'' place to all of us.and one of the places which was hardest to walk was at kent ridge park! we had to walk up this super steep slope to find nina!( the camp chief) and then we had to play this game before we can proceed.due to the rain,we had permission to skip har paw villa and just go straight back to the campsite.
went back for campfire preparation. WRIGHT combined with MORITA to do our mini skit.at first it was quite diffifult to get everyone to listen, but it was alright afterall.

later in the night..it was time for campfire!i dont know y..but the campfire wasnt as nice as p5's camp.this year's was like quite dead and not so interesting.and everybody's spirit and energy level wasnt quite right too.i think most of the pple were already half dead.lol.well..anyway we did perform.and our''performance'' wasnt too bad and wasnt too good too.ohyes! and the chinese teachers were madness man!they were sooo not enthu and they ended up sitting there massaging each other!-_-'' i was sitting beside them and i ended up glaring at them..-snort
the funny part was when mrs tina neoh sang to end the campfire!!haaahha..i was controlling myself so hard to not laugh.LOL.
after campfire..we all rushed to bathe!sigh..queue was damn long and the toilet was like ewwwwww...but no choice larh.and after that was lightsout.

third day was an exciting day!dragon boating!i was long waiting for it to come!(: however, my "good mood" didnt last for long.cos nas(our superb trainer)told us that my group, WRIGHT, had to spilt up into two cos one big boat broke down!-_-'' and y they chose my grp?? cos the camp chief thinks that my grp is the most independent one and since we have lots of points already...give others a chance.upon hearing that, my grp's spirit was dampened.no one was smiling anymore and some'' misunderstandings'' occured.we begged Nas to not spilt our grp up..but she cant do anything cos it was an ''order'' from her chief.i know we shouldnt be begging her and shouldnt be feeling sad cos this will only make things hard for nas,but we just couldnt help it.well..we still did go on two different boats in the end..but we said that no matter what, 2pr will always be together in our own hearts!=) so we cheered for each grp(morita,wright part 1 and part 2!).however, while we were waiting for the boats to come back..rui and huifang had an ''argument''(they were standing beside me).rui didnt have any faith in megan and claimed that she wont do anything.at first fang said that she will.however rui just kept on saying she wont.and so i just told rui that why cant she give megan a chance?! and rui said to me that we had already given her many chances.and this went on and on.although they were standing beside me, i didnt stop them from arguing.dont ask me y..cos i dont know y.i just didnt feel like saying anymore things.i just felt like crying.but i held my tears back.i told myself this is not the time for me to cry.i must be strong.and all thanks to emily for stopping them from arguing.

on the boat, rui sat beside me.and then nicks and megan sat behind me.it was really fun.although we only had half the strength and half of the WRIGHT's spirit..we were doing fine(: and megan was doing superly great too!and during the competition..we came in 4rd and the other half of wright came in 3rd!=) yeah!we came in one after the other.but i dont know abt morita.hehe.all i know was that 2pr was great!!

went back to school and had the prize giving session.and....the WRIGHT BROTHERS won!!!!!! YEAHYEAHYEAH!!!! i was shocked! i took a few sec to realise that we won!hahahhaa.my reaction was dman slow...cos it was unexpected.anyways we won!! WRIGHT rocks!! so does 2pr!! hope that we will carry on having this high spirit in all of us and it will be brought back to class and to the school!!
the last part of the prize giving was the saddest part.morita sang this song called'' can't smile without you'' to their trainer.i felt so touched and tears were closed to my eyes, but i controlled. i thought that i could control very well as i always do...but when it comes to our turn to sing nas our song..i couldnt control anymore..esp seeing pple in my grp crying as well.it was so sad..we will miss NAS!! she really is a great and superb trainer!!!she is always soo enthu and nice towards us.i cant believe that i cried for a trainer??!! cos i nv ever like or miss a trainer.whenever any camp ended, i will just say bye to the trainer and forget abt her.but this time is diff.Nas left beautiful memories for us to remb.
NAS WE LOVE YOU!!!

wright's cheer,the bimbio cheer.(and this cause us to gain lots of points!)

oh god, my nails, i think i need a manicure.the sun, i swear, its burning up my
gorgeous hair.34 69.i dont know the stupid score.go go fight fight, gee i hope i look alright.to the ones over there, we're the ones who cant compare.gooo WRIGHT!

the song that we cried for:

you know i cant smile without you,
i cant smile without you
i cant laugh and i cant sing
i'm findin it hard
to do anything
you see i feel sad when you're sad
i feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew
that i'm goin through
i just can't smile without YOU!!!!

GO WRIGHT!=DDD

3/05/2005