My Island.

29 September 2008

I'm currently reading the book " The purpose driven life".
As i came across this sentence in the book, i stopped to read it over and over again.

"every act of our lives strikes some chord that will vibrate in eternity"

how powerful.

last sat's sermon has impacted me very much too. Sometimes i feel so ashame of myself for not being strong enough in my own convictions. I guess this is a wake up call.

I will make use of this week to sort things out,
Iwill make use of this week to do my reflections,
I will make use of this week to allow myself to spend some time alone.
And at the end of the week I just wish to say,
" God, I Thank You, for everything has been sorted out nicely. Now I know where I'm coming from, and where I'm going to. No one shall decide the amount of joy in me, but You. "

9/29/2008

26 September 2008

seen this game before? omg this game really makes me laugh! Last sat i just go to know about this game in church. The first time when I played was so exciting! I just couldn't stop laughing at the sight of people snatching dog bones! HAHA. This game can cause u to have sore throat too!
TRY IT!

I have been late for school a lot a lot of times lately...
JAZREEL, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?!?!
okay okay i am going to change my sleeping habit!

ohyah, i watched 4bia! erm.. it was okay...? but i WILL NOT watch it 3 times like what eileen did. mad. but sleeping in a triangle was FUNNY!
quite scary but not to the max la. I still prefer mama mia :D
The songs totally reminded me of my younger days where my maid will always play that song at home. Dancing Queen just makes u feel like dancing. HAHA.
My favourite phrase : young and sweet, only SEVENTEEN :D

I also want to say that the korean drama cruel love is rather disappointing. If not for kwon sang woo and the full house guy, i will be insulting this show. HAHA.
yeah!! I have hols for next week :D:D can't wait!

maybe the next time when i hear from you,
things will be different.
I am ever thankful, ever grateful,
but a line needs to be drawn.
God is a good God,
he knows how to plan things that will be best for me.
So Lord, show me the way.

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9/26/2008

12 September 2008

I just feel that I have to type this before I can sleep in peace.
really.. i HATE and i say it again I HATE disappointments. I hate people who upsets me like this. seriously.. you are the one who disappointed me. You are the one who gave me the idea, the hope, and even the opportunity, and what are you telling me now? Not anymore?
you know, if you don't mean it with your heart, if you are unsure, if you are just saying for the fun of saying then may i ask you to please shut up?
To you it may just be a comment, but I took it seriously. I was so hopeful, or rather happy for 10mins?
who gave it? who spoilt it?
You gave it and You spoilt it!
This is not the first time, and everytime when this happens, I just wish I am older right now and I have the money. Maybe a few years down the road when I turn back and read this post again I may think of myself as childish. But the fact is that YOU disappointed me and i really hate it!
I tell you, my mood is not for you to ruin! Mind you, I was already not feeling very good this week and I thought I will be fine, but you know what? You just did a good job by adding yourself in to spoil my mood.
really.. just shut up when you are not serious about things like this.
Lesson learnt.

At the end of the day, God is still the only one whom I can trust and whom I know will not take away the joy in me.

Labels: you gave it and you spoilt it

9/12/2008

10 September 2008

School has already started for a week, and i guess class is getting better each day? Well, we take time to warm up, and i think my current class takes an even longer time to warm up than my previous one, but so far people are generally very nice, hence, I am still thankful.

Today is a really sucky day for me. You know it totally sucks to be unhappy over you don't know what?! I really don't know what exactly is putting me down, but i am just not my usual self. Could also be girls problems la.. heh.
I hardly talk today, I just don't feel good. All I feel like doing was run home, but I know i can't.

I asked cheryl out for dinner on saturday and we talked a bit about our lives, and shared a bit of the questions which we commonly asked ourselves nowadays, and our answers are mostly the same. At least the most important part is the same, so we could identify with each other(:
I felt good talking to her not only because we are long time good friends, but also because we both know we have to be spiritual in our thoughts. Out of the people whom I have asked, they gave me "worldly" answers, but when I asked cheryl, she gave me a spiritual answer and I was so glad to hear(: This is what I really treasure. Someone who can understand and share the same thoughts as you.

Over the weekend I have set new goals and made new promises. I am going to fulfil them with the strength, wisdom, and guidance from God. Today is a brand new start for me, and I am going to do what i have to do. I will persevere to the end!

Right now, I just wish to run away to somewhere for awhile.. frankly, I am rather tired now, both physically and mentally and perhaps emotionally too. But you know what?
Life goes on and I realised that the world will not change and stop for you. What we should actually do is change ourselves.

my eyes set on you in this race that i run
no longer my ways let your will be done

9/10/2008

02 September 2008

I'm here to blog about my hols!

These 3 weeks of hols have been quite a "unique" one because all my holiday plans went down the drain. haha. but i also feel that this has been an "unexpected holiday" as never will i ever think that my hols will turn out to be this way.
really.. i did not fulfil a single one of it because i suddenly got a job(:
i spent my first two days of my hols looking for jobs from the papers, but couldn't find any suitable ones. Then lynn and eileen asked me to work with them at victoria's mum company - TTG asia media.
And so.. i spent 8 days working for that company, which is also the highlight of my hols as well as my 17 years on this planet earth.

The company had a 3 days gifts and stationary exhibition at suntec and i was there to help out the organisers run the event. actually i wasn't event supposed to be there, in fact i was only asked to work for a day, but in the end i worked throughout for 8 days! This is why i said that i had a very expected hols as everything did not happen according to plan.

The first day at work as an experience.
This is my first time experiencing how a 9 to 5 job is like at typical raffles place. Of course i was feeling rather anxious on the first day because that was my very first job ever!!!
I felt very sad when i had to eat my lunch alone.... i had to eat alone. When i was working, i just feel that it sucks so much to be new in a company because you know NO ONE!!! I could sense the politics around me too and at that moment i realised the greatness of being in school and to have friends around you.

The next few days were alright as i was working with lynn and eileen. Till now i still kind of miss working at the exhibition though it was really long hours. whenever i stepped into suntec i will be reminded of the exhibition. haha
I'm not going to say more about the job as there are too much to type. heh.
In all, I'm just so amazed to see how God works in my life. He is always here to provide and answer to my prayers. He knows what i need, what i want and what is best for me.
I remember clearly i ever said to my mum that next time i will work in raffles place!
indeed i worked in rafflesplace, and this is my first job. Also, events and travel are my interest. so guess what. TTG is an events and travel company.
What more can i say... This must be God!
I'm so thankful to work in TTG and to make new friends like victoria and to know more great people like jonathan, christine and grace.
To me I feel as though this hols was an "unexpected" hols, but come to think about it, it was all actually planned for.
I thank God for such an eventful holiday(:

These are the few pics we took after class BBQ.
That day was quite fun too. 6 of us went to mustafa at around 12 after the bbq and then headed down to boon keng for prata. By the time lynn and eileen went home with me to stayover it was already 3 plus. That day we walked a lot a lot, but i had a great time(:

Today is the last day of my hols, so i am going to make full use of it by dedicating the whole of today solely to myself (:

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9/02/2008