My Island.

19 April 2009

As I was thinking how I actually live my life by season, I receive an email from a friend which talks about the 4 seasons in life.

It says,

" Like all creation, we too experience seasons in our life. Without exception, no one can live without going through personal winters.Winter always precedes spring and every living thing must pass through a winter to enter spring. This is a spiritual principle of life that applies to everyone and everything. "

We do different things, like different things, focus of different things in different seasons.Even the people in my life are "seasonal" too.

At this season, maybe you are very in touch with person A then next season person A goes and person B comes. Then the next season,person A comes back again.
As much as I dislike the coming and going of people in my life, it is inevitable. perhaps we also need different people at different season? sounds as though we are making use of the people in our lives, but well. you know what I mean.
But, those who actually stay with you througout all your seasons will be what i'll call true friends.So far, I only know God stays with me throughout everything and anything.

During my two and a half months of hols, I was living in the season of " Growth ".
Growth in my spiritual walk and as a person.

Spiritual walk with God.

During my hols, I feel God has time and again been "breaking my heart". Not that I feel He has hurt me or what, but he upsets me with people. I realised he did so as He wants to open up my eyes to see what actually wrecks my heart. And at last I understood. He is trying to show me what I actually care about. And the answer is "people".Be it their lives their smiles their thoughts their joy....

Personal growth

Thank God for giving me the opportunity to relief teach. It was truely an experience for me. I remember saying in the earlier entries that before school starts, i will post again to see if my thinking will be different. well.. as much as I like children and touching the lives of others, I don't think I can survive being a teacher. A tutor maybe but certainly not a school teacher. (:

And this was my reward...

the girls are really bright. seriously very intelligent girls.. you have no idea how smart a primary one girl can be.. you will be blown away! ask me and i will tell u the things they do and say man..(:

as i watch the primary school kids, all i see is "kim geks" in the making. haha

from a face in the crowd, to one the crowd faces <3

"The cross is the Lord's symbol that reminds us that Jesus experienced a personal winter, too.
When Jesus resurrected from His grave God was declaring, "Your winters are limited!" Your personal winter may be long and hard but it will come to an end. This is the message of the season. Jesus never interpreted His future glory by the dismal winter of His cross.
Neither should you."

this is one of my most accomplished holiday ever!
However, all seasons will pass...
school has started, hence, it's a new season for me.
I'm giving my best.

I need the strength, God.

4/19/2009

07 April 2009

the shark fins and bird nest store in chinatown.
CHEAP!

4 of us in tuk tuk

yesyes, we ordered as if it was a table for 10

our loot! :D:D:D

a week ago i was in Thailand - Bangkok.

i had a great time over at bkk with lynn victoria and jeremey!

i would say it was a good getaway(:

sometimes it is good to just go away from Singapore for awhile to really appreciate where you actually belong.

Thank God for a SAFE trip!

when i was in singapore i wanna to get out of singapore.

when i was overseas, i wanna go back to singpore. strange?

haha.

so well.. now i wish i am still in bangkok doing my shopping n just relax!

it's time like this where u can put things on hold, and just ENJOY.

i must say that i am rather proud of myself because at the age of 18, I actually paid for my own trip! (air ticket was sponsored by my mum.)

accomodation and expenses were all on my own (:

and this is my FIRST trip with just my friends alone. we travelled around bkk all by ourselves too. ahem.. of course with a tourguide - ME. :D

i feel that this is quite cool because i used the money i earned to pay for my trip.

i just like the feeling of WORK AND PLAY.

first work hard, then play hard! i just love it this way(: so when you spend you'll feel good because you know you worked for it!

but... i remembered as i was halfway shopping in bkk, i suddenly don't feel as good. i just thought of how some people might not be as privilege as me and i should count myself as "lucky". yes, I Thank God for such blessings.

Now it's time for me to save money and get back to the stuff I've placed on hold.

here i am.

4/07/2009