"you live for a greater purpose in life..."
your love amazes me...
This is week has been a very bad week. I don't feel as happy as usually. Things in front of me, behind me, beside me just doesn't make me feel like smiling. But well, i survived the week.. (:
News reporter - DONG SU HUA.
haha quite an interesting talk(:
Actually I think i know what makes me feel this way, but i just don't know if it's entirely because of that or it's just another not so happy week? sigh.. actually i have a lot to blog, but now when i finally settle down to blog, i don't know what to say anymore.
so now it is already my 3rd week in school. Again I Thank God for my class, but guess what. Up till now, i'm still very nervous when it comes to presentation, which is like everyday! And i still hate sci and computing lessons! I really hope that one day i will be able to proudly say that i'm no longer nervous when i present! That day shall come. No. That day WILL come!
This whole week has been an emotional week. AI( Affluence to Influence) conference has made me reflect a little about myself. Truely it has been a great 3 days conference, and it really reminded me of how fortunate i am. Or rather how fortunate i should feel.
Apart fr AI conference, I thought about a lot of stuff. So many what IFs..? Why? How? SO what? Then? What else? all came running through my head.
But I feel God has dropped a reminder into my heart " you live for a greater purpose in life".
When this came to my mind, I feel that it must be God. Truely i should live higher and greater than what is pulling me down.
I guess this is just another phase of life that i'm going through. It feels very new, so i'm probably not used to it yet. Right now, I'm trying not to think back and look back to whatever that belongs to the past, so that i can move ahead. But,May I request for a break to 'run away' for awhile please. I'm tired. From the beginning of the year till now, I've not been letting my mind rest enough. It is totally bad to start a year like that, but i believe after experiencing the 'downs', soon i will be able to enjoy the 'ups'.
I really really feel like flying somewhere for a short hols or just be alone for a week or so to just give myself sometime to clear all the rubbish that has been in my heart and mind.
I hope next week we be a better one..(:
I want the hols to come faster..
Get out of my heart
Get out of my mind
Get out of my sight
perhaps then, i will be alright.
higher than i can possible dream
your love amazes me.
5/04/2008
