the sound of the misty rain

2010-01-09T13:31:00.002+08:00

at the end of every year, I would usually blog about my reflections for the year.
i'm late this year, but well is never too late to reflect on something.
Its going to be a short one.

2009 has ben a year of many "first time".
I guess the age "eighteen" really makes a difference because it is so called the "legal" age.
I have done so many things which are what I would call the "first time in my life"...
for example, it was the first time in my life doing relief teaching...
it was the first time in my life going on a trip with my friends without parents..
it was the first time in my life moving a car with my own hands and legs....

of cos there are more to it but just to name a few.
I am so amazed by how God made my 2009 such an unexpected and amazing one.
He made 2 of my dreams come true in 2009 and my life is changed, it will never the same again!
I really stand in awe of God as I watch him slowly walk me to my dreams.

It was indeed a very emotional year for me especially the 2nd half of the year.
I have cried like I never did before but also, I have experienced the JOY and LOVE I never had before.

I thank God for pulling me through 2009, it is the BESTest year in my 18 years of history!
God, I pray that I am walking in the right direction of your plan and whatever I do, I pray that it will be pleasing to you.
I pray for an even more awesome 2010!

2009-11-27T00:46:00.003+08:00

have you ever done something which you know is wrong, but yet you still do it?
how dumb... or should I say well done for being so determine to achieve what you want..

2009-10-20T12:15:00.002+08:00

please your heart but you can't please your mind.
please your mind but you can't please your heart.
please God.

2009-09-21T02:42:00.003+08:00

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

The seed I've recieved I will sow

~The Desert Song ~

This song reminds me that in every season of my life, there is no reason for me to stop
worshipping God because in any and every season, He never stops loving and guiding me.

My God is a God who provides <3

2009-08-23T11:03:00.007+08:00

I realised I do not have any post on my NDP journey AT ALL!
but I have been posting all my photos on FB.. the pictures can better describe my NDP journey(:

well.. so now i shall let some photos do the talking.. I have LOADS of photos, so i picked a few which I think is significant in this journey(:

enjoy!

one type of food we are given for lunch or dinner...
okay.. i know the next qn will be.. "nice or not?"
hmmm.. well, i would say i prefer this over KFC!
btw, we have been eating a lot of KFC's on sats!
my fav is the pizza and wings! that will be best!
but.. not forgetting the old chang kee truck, milo truck, ice cream truck. OH! those were like HEAVEN! hahaha

my dears, thanks a lot for being on this NDP Journey with me(:

you two made my NDP journey even more fruitful and meaningful. I am glad to have pulled you all into this with me, and I am also very glad that you all find this a great journey too!
like i said, next time let's share with our kids their mummies NDP experience together :D

hahaha becacuse of this, i overcome my fear of balloons! i can make a dog :D a sword :D

and maybe flower! :D:D

yesyes this sector, the DARK green sector is the sector we "conquered"!

cool eh? :D

our dance!

HOLIDAY~

CELEBRATE~ ( there was a period of time i felt the song was giving me "nightmare" hahaha )

RP MOTIVATIORS! <3>
The very last bit of our journey where we just enjoy each other... (:

of cos.. not forgetting MY MUM AND DAD who guided us through our journey in NDP!
mum, dad, i've 'graduated' ! hahaha

there is this song I have come to love after all the pracs at the floating platform.
the lyrics goes like this..
Over the years, I've grown to be a part of you
You've cared for me and opened the way to a happy and beautiful life
You make me feel warm and safe and give me hope for brighter days

It's the little things that we share, the love and joy that's in the air
The children's laughter everywhere, and all our favourite things

Over the years, I've grown accustomed to your ways
And no matter where I'll be, it warms my heart to know that
You're always here for me

12 weeks of prac. sounds really long. Indeed it was really long and many sacrifices made. but hey! I did not regret a single bit! the experience was precious, the journey was beautiful.

I Thank God for blessing me with the opportunity and for fulfiling one of my dreams!
I have learnt to love Singapore even more now!

NEXT YEAR!! i wish to be a part of NDP again! :D

2009-07-11T10:45:00.007+08:00

sometimes we hold on to certains things for too long and too tightly that we'll feel we
can no longer breathe like before.
This is what i'm feeling right now, and i feel i need to relax on certain things.

It is what I've been holding on so dearly all these while, but now i hope that one fine day i'm able to say this out loud
"it doesn't matter to me anymore as the season is over (: "

i'm trying.

2009-07-09T00:40:00.001+08:00

Food for thought:

to handle yourself, use your head
to handle others, use your heart
to handle god, use your faith.

2009-06-30T03:59:00.016+08:00

I realised that in everyone's life, we have our own special someone living in our hearts. It doesn't necessarily have to be a boyfriend or girlfriend or hushands or wives to be called a special someone, but even friends or someone you met for a day can be your special someone. It all depends on you, who you deem as special in your life is your special someone.
For this, I believe it is "God sent".

I feel it is God sending angel(s) into our lives to care for us, share with us, and to bring Joy, Peace and Love to us. I believe a person can have more than one special someone in a lifetime, but no matter who you are, how bad you are, or how lousy you feel you are, there will at least be one in a lifetime. I feel this is one of the ways God uses to show us his love.

The special someone may "last" for a day, a season, or even for a lifetime.. but even if it is just for a day, or a season, it will be someone whom you will not forget for a lifetime.

To you my speical someone, I appreciate you, I treasure you and I love you.
I Thank God for you, and even though you may only be here for a season and there may be gaps in our contact, you are someone whom I will not forget for a lifetime.

who is/are your speical someone?
Love them, Treasure them when you are still able to do so.

I believe I have done enough and so i"ll stop right here at my boundary line,
holding on to my faith, knowing you will help me with the rest, God.

2009-06-04T02:03:00.009+08:00

JOY

your joy is my joy, your smile is my smile.

sometimes I wonder what is the joy of my heart.
It is only through some things that I got my answer.
is my joy my own joy?

you can be really happy and overjoyed over the things and happenings in your own life, and that is normal.
However, above and beyond my own joy, I realised there are many things that contribute and determine the joy in my life too. It's simply not that simple.

There are issues in my life that got me to realise my joy is so much dependent on the joy of others. so much so that even if I was feeling great on a particular day, when I know someone whom I know is not having the joy in their hearts, my joy will falter.

how true it is to say

"when your happiness is dependent on others, it will be easily taken away".

this also applies to our loved ones, which come to think about it they are the ones whom we are so dependent on, but one thing we have to remember is they are humans too. Their hearts can change their attitude can change....
time and again..i'm feeling it time and again..
precisely that is why we cannot completely depend our hapiness on people of the world.
The reason why this has been affecting me is because I care, and I love people.
but sometimes I do wish I could care less, and even to heck care.

However, what brings joy to me is when I see great joy in others, esp so if I did play a part in finding that joy. Seeing the smiles and joy in others really warm my heart... i just so love it.
to my loved ones(friends and all), i just want you to know i care and i love you;
your joy is my joy, your smile is my smile.

Speak to this mountain, To move into the ocean,
Your authority given to me.
No matter what happens, Here I am standing,
On the hope of Your word,
Promised to me.

2009-05-12T16:43:00.004+08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desirefulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.. They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

how true. how true.
so people can be in your life for a reason. some for a season. some for a lifetime.
however, there are people who can be in ur life for a reason and season, and the best few can be in your life for a reason, season and a lifetime.
That is what I am looking for in the relationship with people. I have friends who come for a reason and when the reasons are "used up" they go. I have friends whom I call friends just for a season. when the season ends, they become my aquiantance. I have friends who are here with me for a reason and a season, but perhaps when there's no longer any reason, and the season is over, they will take their leave. Right now I feel most of us are in each other's lives for a reason and a season. I pray we will all move on into a relationship that is called a lifetime.
Many of us have seen each other grow since our pri sch days, and now most of us are already 18! From all those childish thinking such us chasing certain idols (F4, 5566 etc), our topics have changed to learning driving, earning pocket money, relationships and even our future careers. Amazing.
I thank God for those who are still with me from a child to now a young lady (:
how cool will it be to realise the people whom u are sharing your retirement plans with are the same people whom you shared about how much you idolise F4!haha
I'm looking forward for that day to come, for i wanna know at the end of the day, who actually mark their words when they say "Friends Forever".

a reason, a season or a lifetime?

for you, a lifetime doesn't seem possible.
but thanks for the being here for a reason, and for the season.
though i feel that's the past, but it was the best season for me. (:

2009-04-19T17:29:00.009+08:00

As I was thinking how I actually live my life by season, I receive an email from a friend which talks about the 4 seasons in life.

It says,

" Like all creation, we too experience seasons in our life. Without exception, no one can live without going through personal winters.Winter always precedes spring and every living thing must pass through a winter to enter spring. This is a spiritual principle of life that applies to everyone and everything. "

We do different things, like different things, focus of different things in different seasons.Even the people in my life are "seasonal" too.

At this season, maybe you are very in touch with person A then next season person A goes and person B comes. Then the next season,person A comes back again.
As much as I dislike the coming and going of people in my life, it is inevitable. perhaps we also need different people at different season? sounds as though we are making use of the people in our lives, but well. you know what I mean.
But, those who actually stay with you througout all your seasons will be what i'll call true friends.So far, I only know God stays with me throughout everything and anything.

During my two and a half months of hols, I was living in the season of " Growth ".
Growth in my spiritual walk and as a person.

Spiritual walk with God.

During my hols, I feel God has time and again been "breaking my heart". Not that I feel He has hurt me or what, but he upsets me with people. I realised he did so as He wants to open up my eyes to see what actually wrecks my heart. And at last I understood. He is trying to show me what I actually care about. And the answer is "people".Be it their lives their smiles their thoughts their joy....

Personal growth

Thank God for giving me the opportunity to relief teach. It was truely an experience for me. I remember saying in the earlier entries that before school starts, i will post again to see if my thinking will be different. well.. as much as I like children and touching the lives of others, I don't think I can survive being a teacher. A tutor maybe but certainly not a school teacher. (:

And this was my reward...

the girls are really bright. seriously very intelligent girls.. you have no idea how smart a primary one girl can be.. you will be blown away! ask me and i will tell u the things they do and say man..(:

as i watch the primary school kids, all i see is "kim geks" in the making. haha

from a face in the crowd, to one the crowd faces <3

"The cross is the Lord's symbol that reminds us that Jesus experienced a personal winter, too.
When Jesus resurrected from His grave God was declaring, "Your winters are limited!" Your personal winter may be long and hard but it will come to an end. This is the message of the season. Jesus never interpreted His future glory by the dismal winter of His cross.
Neither should you."

this is one of my most accomplished holiday ever!
However, all seasons will pass...
school has started, hence, it's a new season for me.
I'm giving my best.

I need the strength, God.

2009-04-07T02:53:00.005+08:00

the shark fins and bird nest store in chinatown.
CHEAP!

4 of us in tuk tuk

yesyes, we ordered as if it was a table for 10

our loot! :D:D:D

a week ago i was in Thailand - Bangkok.

i had a great time over at bkk with lynn victoria and jeremey!

i would say it was a good getaway(:

sometimes it is good to just go away from Singapore for awhile to really appreciate where you actually belong.

Thank God for a SAFE trip!

when i was in singapore i wanna to get out of singapore.

when i was overseas, i wanna go back to singpore. strange?

haha.

so well.. now i wish i am still in bangkok doing my shopping n just relax!

it's time like this where u can put things on hold, and just ENJOY.

i must say that i am rather proud of myself because at the age of 18, I actually paid for my own trip! (air ticket was sponsored by my mum.)

accomodation and expenses were all on my own (:

and this is my FIRST trip with just my friends alone. we travelled around bkk all by ourselves too. ahem.. of course with a tourguide - ME. :D

i feel that this is quite cool because i used the money i earned to pay for my trip.

i just like the feeling of WORK AND PLAY.

first work hard, then play hard! i just love it this way(: so when you spend you'll feel good because you know you worked for it!

but... i remembered as i was halfway shopping in bkk, i suddenly don't feel as good. i just thought of how some people might not be as privilege as me and i should count myself as "lucky". yes, I Thank God for such blessings.

Now it's time for me to save money and get back to the stuff I've placed on hold.

here i am.

2009-03-15T01:55:00.011+08:00

what is your definition of a best friend?

this has been in my thoughts for quite some time..

I realised it has been a long time since i used the term "my best friend".

I started counting how many people I've actually called my best friend and I realised for this 18years, I have only called 3 people "my best friend".
one in k2, one in p3 and one in p6.

I am always so thankful for the friends whom i'm blessed with, and i just can't thank God enough for them. but there was one day when this question just came into my thoughts,
" who is your best friend"?
I thought it was such an easy question, but guess what. i couldn't answer to myself .. and so that got me thinking.

I have so many friends around me whom i call them my close friends/good friends and I do feel loved, but who is my best friend?
as for me, my definition of a best friend is
"someone who knows and and understands me really well.(so well that some times she/he even know what i'm thinking without me telling) someone who will always be there for me whenever i need; anytime, anywhere. "

as i was thinking.. I realised actually all my close friends are best friends to me in one way or another. it's so true because i also realised i share different things with different people. I do different stuff and even go to different places with different people. I even speak differently(in terms of language and the use of words etc) with different people.
ohmy, i sound as though i have split personality, but i guess this is how we humans need to learn to be flexible as the people we meet are all different. BUT, we have to be sincere in whatever we do, do not be who we are not just to please someone. that's what i believe.

though i wish to have just one whom i can call my best friend, whom I can share everything and anything with, but i am already very thankful. perhaps when I finally found that someone, and if it's a guy, that will probably be my boyfriend or my husband already. hahaha

or maybe best friend is acutally only just a term.

but God, you are my bestest friend(:

2009-02-24T14:36:00.011+08:00

an amusing "conversation"...

student: "ms lim, when is your birthday?"
Teacher: -silence-
student: "ms lim, when is your birthday?"
Teacher: why?
student: " just tell me...ms lim, when is your birthday?"
Teacher: " don't tell you
student: "why... tell me when is your birthday"
Teacher: " stop asking. go back and do your work "
Student: " uhhh... tell me.."
Teacher: " when is yours? "
Student: " 14 january"
Teacher: " - stop whatever she is doing and turn slowly to stare at the student- when is ur birthday again? "
Student:" 14 January, it was a saturday. "
Teacher: " -couldn't believe her ears but is happy to know that her birthday is on 14th!- no, it was on a wednesday "
student: " oh issit? i forgot. so ms lim, when is your birthday? ....."

kids are kids. they are just so innocent.
the student did not wonder why the teacher would remember so clearly that 14 jan was on a wed.
but the teacher smiled (:

2009-02-08T14:40:00.012+08:00

can you guess what these are?

haha these are what the kids drew for me!! so heart melting right..! soso sweet! (:

I'm having my 2.5 months of hols now! woohoo!

Just like everyone else, I was hunting for jobs..and then I thought of relief teaching and so i went to register with MOE. It was fast, I got aprroved the following day and I was just thinking which school i should approach. well, sc primary was the first that came to my mind of course, but I thought I should challenge myself even more and go out to a different school. but well.. I still ended up contacting my pri sch laoshi and so yes, I started working the following week! It all just happened fast fast fast! I am very thankful that i got it so fast and of course it was with the help of laoshi..so i didn't have to go through the general office.

so many people have been asking me about my time with the kids so I think it's better for me to type a bit of it here(:

The first thing i wanna say about the primary ONEs is they are SO ADORBALE!!! And seriously, girls ARE GIRLS! They are typical girls!! I'm saying this because they will complain to you about the slightest things like for example " Sally sprinkled water at me! "

The girls also LOVE telling you about EVERYTHING and ANYTHING even if it's so random!

"ms lim.. my mummy gave me $28 to buy books today", " ms lim.. I have tap dance after school today", "MS LIM! MS LIM! I WANT TO TELL YOU SOMETHING *pulling arms and sit on lap " ohyes! they will ask u to help them tell their hair too. Not forgetting to mention that they are RICH KIDS!! this p2 girl was wearing the baby G watch I wanted!!!

haha and there is this particular girl whom I like veryvery much and she stands out from the rest because she is taller and has a rather mature face for a pri one. I REALLY FEEL LIKE TAKING HER HOME WITH ME!!!!

Oh right. two girls cried in class -.- BUT I did not make them cry! I shall skip the reason for the first girl..too long to type. but the second girl came to me and say " Ms lim... leanne hurt my feelings!" omg.. my jaw almost dropped! HELLOOOO you are only primary one and u are already talking about feelings? SO CUTE!! hahaha

one thing about kids is they can cry easily but they will also forget easily too! sometimes I do wish I can be like them.. can easily just forget what made u cry in 15mins! and you'll see her running around with that friend whom "hurt her feelings" ohmy... haha!

so far I have only gone back thrice to relief teach and I have to say it's a really good experience for me. I didn't have to teach much, so far I have only taught english and maths. and i realised being a teacher is NOT EASY AT ALL!!! Therefore, I don't think i wanna be one anymore..?

I'll post again before my school starts and see if my thinking will be different in april(:

I forgot to mention that the teachers were very welcoming. Those who don't remember my name but could still recognise my face are still nice enough to say "welcome back". and for those who still remember me.. they said "JAZREEL!! YOU ARE BACK!" guess what.. I sat next to Mrs Eng who was my PRIMARY ONE form teaching hahaha. she was so excited to see me. Now guess what, we are both teaching primary one. GOSH! time FLIES!!!

I thank God for this opportunity for me to fullfil the little dream I have ever since I was the girl in blue(:

P.S those of you who are thinking of doing relief teaching too, make sure you have the patience for kids and you can control them! or else.. you won't be able to get work done and you will start pulling your hair. I almost pulled mine!

2009-01-17T01:16:00.012+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY 18 NOW..... (:
well... I seriously don't mind being 18, but i wanna be FOREVER 18!!!
This year I chose to spend my 18th birthday(the actual day) in a way which I don't usually spend it. I thought since it's my 18th birthday, it shall be different. I had a peaceful night out on the 14th, and since I said it's different, I did not take any photos that night. But still, I had a good time and I feel I had made the right choice afterall(:

Alright, I shall let the photos do the talking.
Sometimes ACTIONS speak louder than WORDS(:
yes, I had a week of dinners with people who are so dear to my heart.....

I do not have photos with Amelia and Meiping, but thanks for asking me out for dinner my dears(:

All of you are my blessings. It's time like this where you feel really loved. Thanks for the phone calls at night and for the "never ending" smses up til 11.59PM! I heart grinned at every msges(:

On th 14th I wasn't awaken by my alarm, but by my msges! you guys are really SO sweet.. I know you all msg while getting ready for school or on your way to school right... haha. I'm really touched by how some of you could actually still remember my birthday.

Of course, I've also feel the truth of how some people used to "own a big place" in my heart but are now perhaps gone? ohwell, that is a post for another day.

As I was tidying all the msges in my inbox, I realised that I was blessed with 42 msges on my bday! At that moment, I immediately said God, I thank you for blessing me with all these great friends and placing them in different areas of my life, but yet they are all precious to me.(:

This is a time where I should start counting my blessings. It's also a time where you know who still cares and who still bothers to remember even when we are not in close contact. And I appreciate that alotalot.

All I can say is, I'm blessed.

I'm blessed, and I wish to be a blessing to others too (:

2009-01-04T03:28:00.014+08:00

hello 2009...

A bit of a reflection here,

finally it's 2009. I said finally because I was kind of looking forward to 2009 as 2008 wasn't treating me too well. In fact, I can say that 2008 was the worst year in my whole entire 17years of life. I realised how much I have changed in 2008. Frankly, I am rather surprised with myself... I don't know if you have realised it, but I did. For the better or for worse... I guess it's dpdp.(diff pple diff perspective. RP students favourite line)

I recalled at the beginning of the year, I was suffering from moments of "waiting". I remember typing a post and I started off by typing wait wait wait in red.
The first few months of 2008 was totally horrible. Those were the times where I really understood the meaning of being at the lowest point in life. But well, I'm proud to say that I mananged get through all of them and my "reward" was that I became stronger as a person. Of course, I did not get through all those myself, but with the grace and mercy of my loving God.

Then comes entering into a place where I felt I was being thrown into the ocean to learn how to swim. yes, it was tough, it is still tough. Having to adapt to whatever and whoever that comes in my way is a thing which Jazreel cannot do for peaNUTS! I cannot express how much I hate changes, but I just simply hate it.
Last year was also a year where I earned my very first $500 bucks with my own hands. I totally remembered how I felt like crying on the first day at work...
but you know what? Through it all, I realised one thing about myself, and I feel that it is what God is working on in my life too. From that day til now, I feel God telling me that it's time for me to grow up. It's time for me to mature and to learn to be secured in life. This is tough.. just TOO tough for me, but you know what? This is 2009, and so I'm trying.

2008 was filled with too many "I"s that I feel very selfish.
I feel... I am.. I want.. I think... I need..

2009, "no longer I", but "You".
Love God. Love Life. Love People.
Sometimes we are just too engross with ourselves that we forgot about the people around us and the people who need us.

I've received this email from someone, which has hit me quite a bit.
There are unexpected people who have been added into my life that at times I even question God for his purpose.

"There comes a point in your life when you realize
who matters,
who never did,
who won't anymore...
and who always will.
So, don't worry about people from your past,
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."

True enough, people are just coming and going, but there will still come to a point where you know who are the ones who really matter, and who won't anymore, and who always will.
I just wanna say that if you are willing, I will be willing or maybe even more willing.
I believe it takes two hands to clap.

alright..
Goodbye to 2008.
I am now welcoming 2009 with open armrs for I believe 2009 is going to be greater and better(:

mould my heart in Your way,
use me in Your way.

2008-12-28T03:18:00.038+08:00

you know, it's not too good when your head is running faster than your heart.
but my week has been great!

22. Dinner with Amelia
23. movie with eunice
24. i. Church
ii. dinner with angela audrie and Cheryl
iii. my niece bday celebration
25. i. LZ’s bday lunch
ii. work(sad case)
26. Dinner with bballers
27 i. cheryl’s cell party
ii. Bballers bbq

Christmas is over! That is really fast.
but still, I love Christmas just as much.
This year, my favourite orchard deco is the one at tangs. On the building it says,
with God, all things are possible...

i think that is super cool though I was so surprised to see it.

Thanks for all the presents and cards, my dears (:
cheryl was telling me that as we grow up, we realised all those material stuff are no longer important and we no longer wish to get those as presents. We would prefer getting photos and heartwarming cards from our dearest friends. Indeed, that's what I feel too.
Some things are just what money can't buy. Those long long precious friendships... since primary school days.... we have seen how each other grow and mature through the years. Pictures and words tell us all and these are what money can't buy.

I have heard seniors telling us that wherever we go, whatever friends we make, at the end of the day you'll realised the friends whom u know for sure that your friendships will go a long way are actually the friends you've made in SC.

Right now, at this very moment, I agree with them a lot.

you girls are really the dearest friends of my life. <3<3<3

(there are more of u but i can't put up all la... hehe)

The year is coming to an end and I have lots of reflection to be done. I did not start off the year well.. neither did I live through the year that well.. but i wanna end the year well. For next week, I need to take time out for myself = take time out to spend with God. I need TIME.

2008-12-18T12:35:00.008+08:00

THE RIDE OF MY LIFE!!!

during the ride i thought i have lost my heart!

Please don't ask me who that indian is...! Malaysia is just simply not high tech enough to crop photos...HAHA.

this is my favourite ice cream in malaysia(: Bangkok has this too!

the foggy air looks cool (:

so i am back from my last minute short and sweet 2 day 1 night genting trip with meiping. The last time i went genting was in sec 3 i think?

we took a coach up there which took us about 8hours, but thank God the seats were comfy enough.. even better than the airplane seats! actually 8 hours is nothing cos i remember a few years ago we had prefect seminar up in penang, and that took us 12 whole hours and on top of that we got horrible seats! Although this coach does not provide personal tv like the previous coach i took but it was really not bad.. i wouldn't mind taking it again. Just my mp3 + sleep + a good friend with me is sufficient(:

we went to the outdoor theme park and it wasn't as exciting as i thought it would be. The last time i went to that theme park was ages ago..and I was only with my maid. At least this time i have a friend with me(: I don't know why that stupid "spiderman" ride become an attraction? i don't find it fun at all. It just makes me feel dizzy. and for meiping, she just felt it was smelly! hahaha. anyways, that ride is no kick at all as compared to SPACE SHOT! THAT RIDE ALMOST TOOK MY LIFE! Before i went up, I was telling meiping how i regret not writing my will first. haha. I have never sat a ride which will make me feel so scared before!!

when it dropped, i screamed and then later on.. no voice came out! I couldn't feel my heart.. :..(

ANYWAYS, i'm glad to be ALIVE! I really wonder how do people have the guts to committ suicide! I remember once my mum told me some people die even before they reach the ground. It is so high that some might get heart attack in the midst of the jump and now i totally understand how it can be possible.

From this trip,i managed to buy 6 tops and some earrings. Apart from FOS. the rest were their local brands. The brand PADINI is not bad. Meiping bought 6 tops at one go from there and I bought 2. quite sad that this season in FOS isn't that great. But still, i blew about $200 for just 2 days 1 night on food and clothes. haha we ate quite a lot cos we couldn't sleep and that was the only thing we could do. I only regret not taking a photo at MARRYBROWN(haha meiping, u know why)

All in all, i still miss those days when i went to genting with my cousins.. that was when i was much much younger. It was so fun then.. arcades and the indoor theme parks... It doesn't feel the same anymore.

Guess what. As i was cutting out the tags on my shirts which i bought from there. One of the tag caught my attention and it was a top from Penelope Donna, which i bought from FOS.

The tag looks like this

and it says :

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship.

It's not about how much love you have in the beginning,

but how much love you build til the end.

How nice.

2008-12-13T04:01:00.009+08:00

my heart is starting to feel "lighter" now...

Last week was not good...not good at all for me. Something happened which made me realise how words are so so so important to me.
A word can mean a thousand things to me...

A word can make my day.

A word can make me cry.

I realised sometimes it's indeed true that the one you love and treasure the most, are the ones who hurt you the most too. The reason for this is because it's only when you treasure a person, you will then be more concerned or rather more sensitive to the person's words.

I feel so because a few days ago as i was just thinking how words always affect me so much, I suddenly got reminded about an incident. Although it was just a few words, but the words just lingered in my head...and my heart hurts even more. It's already the past, but yet i still can't make myself banish that from my mind.

It hurts so much for me to know that the people whom I treasure soso much do not remember words i deemed as important. When I knew about it, I just refused to repeat myself for I believe that if i am important to you, and you treasure me as much too, you will remember what I said. But since you don't then I guess now I know where I stand. perhaps, it's also dpdp( RP's term for different people different perspective). As what I deemed as important may not be important to you anyways.

I thank God for guiding me through these week. Although I still do have a lot of things going on in my mind, but at least i'm feeling much better now and through it all, i've learnt much more about myself.

God first loved us, before we decide to love him.
and even if we do not love him, he still loves us.

God, I wanna have a heart after you.

2008-11-29T03:48:00.002+08:00

Chomp Chomp with FUSH!

Guess how many people were sharing all these food?...
you are wrong!
Not FOUR people but TWO xD
seriously we had a "FEAST". hahaha
stingray.chickenwings.satay.fried oyster.carrot.cake.
and that's NOT ALL.

Next.
our dessert at haato! please do try their cookies and cream! that is my favourite!! yummy!

we are not done....

Yogurt at frolick :D:D

so in total we ate

stingray.chickenwings.satay.fried oyster.carrot.cake.haato icecream. frolick yogurt.

look at our contented face...(:

it was a great dinner as i have not seen fush for ages! we talked and shared a lot about school and stuff.. i had a really good time!

I said we can only eat this much maybe once every six months, but i take back my words. This kind of ''feast' can only be held once a year!
<3<3

2008-11-24T23:03:00.010+08:00

Sports stacking was quite an experience it was my first time seeing people stack "cups" for a competition. when i said people i meant KIDS! The younger you are the better u are at stacking. I heard that the older u are your brain/co ordination is slower than the younger ones.

Interesting(:

HAHA fun!
my new toy from downtown east :D
any of you know what is the name of it?Little Miss _____ ?

It has been a long time since i actually roam around downtown east. I used to go there almost every weekend in primary school cos of ESCAPE! I have not been there for such a long time man.. i wanna go!

It has changed a lot, and there are some interesting shops there too. Downtown East is definitely in their christmas mood already man.. it felt so "christmasy" when I was there for the 3 days. iloveit :D

Asia Conference 2008

Heard of it before?

Last week was a very "spiritual" week for me as I atteneded 3 conferences and my own service so that means '4 spiritual days' in a row. haha.

I had to sit at the overflow hall for thurs and fri tho :( but i'm glad that i could even get in (:

There were like 20 ooo people attending the conference! I have been travelling down from school on thurs and friday, and woke up early on sunday to attend it too(:
worth it! Although the sermons were really "chim" but it feels really good to be worshipping with THOUSANDS of people! The people's love for God truely impressed me.

Don Moen is cool man!(:

I know I am very privilege to hear tops speakers like phil pringle, Don Moen and C3 Band, but nothing beats hearing the Word from Pastor How! His sermon impacted me the most.

Those 4 days have reminded me that there is more to life and how I should count myself as a lucky child.

Indeed, Kids should be WON FOR GOD!

God, tell me what is best for me now right now.

2008-11-14T10:18:00.011+08:00

lately i have been very lazy to blog...anyways my hols is over and i'm back to school :(
I had a rather good hols, because I went to a place which I have not been before. And i just love going to places where i have never been to, it gets me excited and amazed at what they have got.so this hols i visited haji lane with eunice(: it was great fun! I'm lazy to post photos.. photos are up on facebook (:I am just simply hoping for 13 dec to come SOON! That will be my next hols!!
I am going to briefly blog about what happened recently for me so my entry might sound very "distorted" heh.

so last week I went for nick vujicic's service and it was great! not only are his words inspiring, but he himself is an inspiration. should go youtube and hear him out.
life with no limbs, but life with no limits.
powerful.

over the weekend I went for simon's concert and cheryl's baptism (:
finally have the chance to spend time with those girls! miss them lots and it was really nice catching up with them :D we should try to meet again soon! catch a movie or something.

The special girl on her most speical and important day! (other than her wedding)Haha

went back to attend the prefect's 'campglow'. They called their camp M.A.D camp and their shirts say M.A.D in SC. That stands for MAKE A DIFFERENCE! cool huh.

when i went back, i just got reminded of how SC has such generous parents man! They never fail to donate good food! hehe

It felt like it has been a long time since we last saw each other, but the 'craziness' still feels familiar. (:
There are now 88 prefects on board! that is like WOW! so many!! But i'm sure they will do a good job anyways(: Strive on! I hope to be back for invest next year!

Alrights, I am currently volunteering this sports stacking event, I hope it will be a great experience! will blog about it when i get back(:

There are times when you'll feel sweet.

There are times when you'll feel bitter.

But when bitter and sweet come together,

the feeling you'll get is bitter.

or maybe..

bitter or sweet is a choice.

2008-10-28T02:29:00.005+08:00

The highlight of the week is..... GREAT EASTERN RUN !
haha not as though I ran the marathon, but I was a volunteer together with yenxi, shuying and jennet (:
the crazy part of it was we had to report at 5.30AM at cityhall!!! ohmy.. trains and buses don't even work at such early hours! so.... cabbed there. I did not sleep the whole night cos I took a nap at 6PM and woke up at 8PM so i wasn't tired until i had to leave the house. so i only managed to close my eyes for an hour :(

I rushed down and didn't have time to change. so the brilliant shuying said " do the SC way". HAHA. you know what that means? she is referring to us changing in class cupboards! HAHA!
okay but the thing is there isn't cupboard for me to change so i changed in the bus(the one which was bringing us to our assigned place not SBS bus hor! )... Hehe.
of course with the help of jennet and shuying la.. it's impossible to do it by myself. I supposed the sight was very unglam.. but who cares la i managed to change anyways! :D
PS: SC taught us well :D:D

okay, so our job was to give out drinks.
We were the first water station, which is 2KM away fr the starting point.
arranging the drinks was rather fun.. but NOT WHEN EVERYONE COMES TO YOU ALL AT ONE GO FOR DRINKS!!!
The first runner came and omg.. she wanted to take ONE drink.. i repeat, ONE DRINK and the WHOLE ENTIRE row of drinks fell to the ground. my jaw dropped.
I know the first few runners are competitive runners but i think if i am in her position, of course i would have also grabbed one drink but i will also make sure the other drinks don't drop as i grab! scary.
and then.... comes the hundreds or was it thousands of people running towards u for drinks! i was very pressurized!!! Moreover i was standing at the very first table and i don't know why they just can't move to the back! but well.. an experience la. (:

when we were done, we walked to water point 3 to look for yenxi and to help out. when we had to walk to water point 3, i felt as though i am in the marathon except we took short cuts la. HAHA.
ohya.. when i was at water point one i saw Ms Leong, Ms Lin, Mrs bowness and Mrs Lim running :D Ms leong was so calm and cool when she came to the water table. she could even say HI to us.
At water point 3, we saw more people because it serves the 5km runners too. Saw lots of girls in YELLOW and felt that saying "GO SC" was a must and so i did! :D There was a group who cheered when i said, but got some looked at me with a surprised look. anyways.. the interesting part was to see the teachers!! hahaha saw lots of them too! FIFI, mrs fern, ms tan, mrs neoh, mrs de, mrs tang, mrs chia, ms goh etc.. i was SOOO HAPPY to see them :D:D:D

went to the SC booth after everything was over! SC is so cool man.. they have a tent JUST FOR SC! cos a lot of girls participated and so we won the school challenge thing. SUPER DUPER proud of SC. as usual. (:
especially when the MC shouted "what school ?!" there went the screams and cheers! The MCs were so shocked that we had such loud screams that he said " i'm sure screaming is part of your lessons". heh
I was once again indulged in the SC Spirit! and of course.. we ended with SC Cheer.
so heartwarming.. totally made my heart grined :D:D:D
I turned to shuying and said, " although there are many things that have changed, but I realised there are some things just have not changed too. "
I like it this way(:

I am also proud to announce that my HOLS IS HERE!!! JOY!
although it's only a pathetic one week hols, but it's really better than nothing!
actually.. come to think about it, having hols or not i still do feel very free. but when hols are here.. i feel even more free! I'm actually getting quite scared that one day I will forget the meaning of "stress" and "busy". but to me hols means that i get to sleep late and I can go ahead with the places i wanted to go in the day. Also, I feel that i need this hols badly to clear "some mess". yes my room is one and also mentally and emotionally. I need this time to motivate myself once again, so i'm sorry my dears, i don't plan to have meet ups this hols. I really do miss you guys a lot but I want to take this hols to spend time with myself. Hence, I am taking this hols easy! No appointments! haha. There's still dec anyways (:

Have a good week! <3

2008-10-10T22:58:00.013+08:00

The most recent dinner was with the bballers at shokudo (:
It has been a long time since we had dinners like this. The food was not bad, but you'll need to go there with MONEY! It's like jap's version of marche. The more u see the more u will wanna eat.

went home with fush after that and I felt that it feels so "familiar". we used to go home together after training last time and she will always drop off at her house earlier than me. awww.. so nostalgic.

Last week was my fully booked week and it was GREAT! :D

Met up with people whom I missed so much!

Had two dinners last week, first was with audrie at soup restaurant and second dinner with amelia at ding tai feng. Great dinner with great people, totally awesome!

Amelia and I spent about two over hours, talking and eating, after that we left for the mrt, but our conversation just never seemed to have an end. haha. we ended up sitting at the mrt station talking and took the last train home.

We just had so much to share because we have not met up for months! We could identify with each other on many things, especially now when both of us are in poly.

And.... SC OPEN HOUSE :D

I miss SC as much as usual and as what rui said,

" I miss everything that is not SC, which is everything.

I didn't manage to talk much to Mrs Choo and Ms Goh again

didn't know there is such a thing as morning and afternoon shift. but at least I got a photo with Ms Goh(:

yeah the 4 of us are going to be volunteers for great eastern run :D
Come to think about it i should have signed up for the 5Km run. heh.
anyways, if any of you guys are gonna be there too, tell me k! (:

These are the people whom I LOVE <3>

we should have such meet ups more often k! after open house ended, we got free food and all of us sat at amphi to eat. Then fang suddenly said, "wah I'm so tired. didn't know that finding teachers can be so tiring too." haha so funny la, we were so tired sitting down eating like as if we helped up for the open house and had no time to eat. those were the days man.. but this time we were just tired looking for teachers. haha!

Really this company of friends.. we talked and laughed like tmrw is the end of the world.These recent days have not been very good to me, but after seeing you guys my heart finally smiled (:
I felt so good because Iwas finally back with the people whom I can "click" with the most. I had an awesome time! we spoke to some juniors and heard how our school's system has changed... should I say overtime or overnight? anyways, there were drastic changes in school and I have no comments about it. Or more like it's not safe to write it down here.

but anyways, I just hope that SC's flag will just keep flying high..higher and higher!

We left sch at around 6plus and headed down to bukit timah plaza to surprise AMILYN!(:
my dear FARM, in january I said I will get you back right....? HOHO i did it :D
Really gald to see you again! I have not seen you since June la... maybe we should have our KAP gathering soon or our NZ lunch table or was it round table? opps..HAHA.

At Bukit Timah's Attitude(: we had jelly hearts and brownie and soda!

Mummy's Birthday!

A saturday night at starbucks with thea enjoying my chocolate scones :D

Please do not eat chocolate scones with mango and passion fruit drink!!

You will feel very heaty after that. I felt like I was gonna fall sick then.

Alrights, that is all for the happenings of these two weeks.

Met up with so many people at one go, talked to everyone of them, and it really amazes when I see how our conversation has changed in terms of the things we talked about.
One thing for sure is that we are really growing up (: Things we shared were really thought provoking. Hence, the more I feel this season is a season of growth for me, in terms of my character and attitude and in terms of my faith too.

Sometimes i just feel so silly.. I know that it's not right, i know that i might regret, i know i am letting history repeats itself, I know i will turn back and laugh at myself.... but yet i am still doing it.
God, tell me the purpose of 'IT'.

2008-10-01T14:37:00.006+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!
I have totally forgotten about such a day! but i don't mind celebrating it all over again tho :D
great memories.

I cannot go batam right now because I am almost broke!

I'm so sorry you guys.. especially meiping :( sorry eh.

I was able to go if not for that package which cost me 134 bucks! but i still think it's worth it la.. but then paying all at one go really makes my heartache. nevermind! i will SAVE IT BACK!

and we can go batam like anytime :D when i feel richer that is. HEHE.

Also because of the 134bucks spent, I'm not able to buy my Baby G watch at the end of this week, which i actually planned to.

what do you think? NICE? :D

ohyea.. and guess what. Yesterday i dreamt that Ms LEONG threw me out of class. HAHAHA!

2008-09-29T13:36:00.003+08:00

I'm currently reading the book " The purpose driven life".
As i came across this sentence in the book, i stopped to read it over and over again.

"every act of our lives strikes some chord that will vibrate in eternity"

how powerful.

last sat's sermon has impacted me very much too. Sometimes i feel so ashame of myself for not being strong enough in my own convictions. I guess this is a wake up call.

I will make use of this week to sort things out,
Iwill make use of this week to do my reflections,
I will make use of this week to allow myself to spend some time alone.
And at the end of the week I just wish to say,
" God, I Thank You, for everything has been sorted out nicely. Now I know where I'm coming from, and where I'm going to. No one shall decide the amount of joy in me, but You. "

2008-09-26T00:44:00.009+08:00

seen this game before? omg this game really makes me laugh! Last sat i just go to know about this game in church. The first time when I played was so exciting! I just couldn't stop laughing at the sight of people snatching dog bones! HAHA. This game can cause u to have sore throat too!
TRY IT!

I have been late for school a lot a lot of times lately...
JAZREEL, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?!?!
okay okay i am going to change my sleeping habit!

ohyah, i watched 4bia! erm.. it was okay...? but i WILL NOT watch it 3 times like what eileen did. mad. but sleeping in a triangle was FUNNY!
quite scary but not to the max la. I still prefer mama mia :D
The songs totally reminded me of my younger days where my maid will always play that song at home. Dancing Queen just makes u feel like dancing. HAHA.
My favourite phrase : young and sweet, only SEVENTEEN :D

I also want to say that the korean drama cruel love is rather disappointing. If not for kwon sang woo and the full house guy, i will be insulting this show. HAHA.
yeah!! I have hols for next week :D:D can't wait!

maybe the next time when i hear from you,
things will be different.
I am ever thankful, ever grateful,
but a line needs to be drawn.
God is a good God,
he knows how to plan things that will be best for me.
So Lord, show me the way.

2008-09-12T01:58:00.005+08:00

I just feel that I have to type this before I can sleep in peace.
really.. i HATE and i say it again I HATE disappointments. I hate people who upsets me like this. seriously.. you are the one who disappointed me. You are the one who gave me the idea, the hope, and even the opportunity, and what are you telling me now? Not anymore?
you know, if you don't mean it with your heart, if you are unsure, if you are just saying for the fun of saying then may i ask you to please shut up?
To you it may just be a comment, but I took it seriously. I was so hopeful, or rather happy for 10mins?
who gave it? who spoilt it?
You gave it and You spoilt it!
This is not the first time, and everytime when this happens, I just wish I am older right now and I have the money. Maybe a few years down the road when I turn back and read this post again I may think of myself as childish. But the fact is that YOU disappointed me and i really hate it!
I tell you, my mood is not for you to ruin! Mind you, I was already not feeling very good this week and I thought I will be fine, but you know what? You just did a good job by adding yourself in to spoil my mood.
really.. just shut up when you are not serious about things like this.
Lesson learnt.

At the end of the day, God is still the only one whom I can trust and whom I know will not take away the joy in me.

2008-09-10T01:31:00.004+08:00

School has already started for a week, and i guess class is getting better each day? Well, we take time to warm up, and i think my current class takes an even longer time to warm up than my previous one, but so far people are generally very nice, hence, I am still thankful.

Today is a really sucky day for me. You know it totally sucks to be unhappy over you don't know what?! I really don't know what exactly is putting me down, but i am just not my usual self. Could also be girls problems la.. heh.
I hardly talk today, I just don't feel good. All I feel like doing was run home, but I know i can't.

I asked cheryl out for dinner on saturday and we talked a bit about our lives, and shared a bit of the questions which we commonly asked ourselves nowadays, and our answers are mostly the same. At least the most important part is the same, so we could identify with each other(:
I felt good talking to her not only because we are long time good friends, but also because we both know we have to be spiritual in our thoughts. Out of the people whom I have asked, they gave me "worldly" answers, but when I asked cheryl, she gave me a spiritual answer and I was so glad to hear(: This is what I really treasure. Someone who can understand and share the same thoughts as you.

Over the weekend I have set new goals and made new promises. I am going to fulfil them with the strength, wisdom, and guidance from God. Today is a brand new start for me, and I am going to do what i have to do. I will persevere to the end!

Right now, I just wish to run away to somewhere for awhile.. frankly, I am rather tired now, both physically and mentally and perhaps emotionally too. But you know what?
Life goes on and I realised that the world will not change and stop for you. What we should actually do is change ourselves.

my eyes set on you in this race that i run
no longer my ways let your will be done

2008-09-02T02:47:00.004+08:00

I'm here to blog about my hols!

These 3 weeks of hols have been quite a "unique" one because all my holiday plans went down the drain. haha. but i also feel that this has been an "unexpected holiday" as never will i ever think that my hols will turn out to be this way.
really.. i did not fulfil a single one of it because i suddenly got a job(:
i spent my first two days of my hols looking for jobs from the papers, but couldn't find any suitable ones. Then lynn and eileen asked me to work with them at victoria's mum company - TTG asia media.
And so.. i spent 8 days working for that company, which is also the highlight of my hols as well as my 17 years on this planet earth.

The company had a 3 days gifts and stationary exhibition at suntec and i was there to help out the organisers run the event. actually i wasn't event supposed to be there, in fact i was only asked to work for a day, but in the end i worked throughout for 8 days! This is why i said that i had a very expected hols as everything did not happen according to plan.

The first day at work as an experience.
This is my first time experiencing how a 9 to 5 job is like at typical raffles place. Of course i was feeling rather anxious on the first day because that was my very first job ever!!!
I felt very sad when i had to eat my lunch alone.... i had to eat alone. When i was working, i just feel that it sucks so much to be new in a company because you know NO ONE!!! I could sense the politics around me too and at that moment i realised the greatness of being in school and to have friends around you.

The next few days were alright as i was working with lynn and eileen. Till now i still kind of miss working at the exhibition though it was really long hours. whenever i stepped into suntec i will be reminded of the exhibition. haha
I'm not going to say more about the job as there are too much to type. heh.
In all, I'm just so amazed to see how God works in my life. He is always here to provide and answer to my prayers. He knows what i need, what i want and what is best for me.
I remember clearly i ever said to my mum that next time i will work in raffles place!
indeed i worked in rafflesplace, and this is my first job. Also, events and travel are my interest. so guess what. TTG is an events and travel company.
What more can i say... This must be God!
I'm so thankful to work in TTG and to make new friends like victoria and to know more great people like jonathan, christine and grace.
To me I feel as though this hols was an "unexpected" hols, but come to think about it, it was all actually planned for.
I thank God for such an eventful holiday(:

These are the few pics we took after class BBQ.
That day was quite fun too. 6 of us went to mustafa at around 12 after the bbq and then headed down to boon keng for prata. By the time lynn and eileen went home with me to stayover it was already 3 plus. That day we walked a lot a lot, but i had a great time(:

Today is the last day of my hols, so i am going to make full use of it by dedicating the whole of today solely to myself (:

2008-08-17T03:16:00.019+08:00

this is going to be a wordy post as i only intend to post one picture. (:

guess what this is?
It's OVALTINE! :DDDD
You will not be able to get this packet of overtine anywhere in singapore, but only GoldenMiles THAI supermarket. brilliant me. haha!
i was just wanted to roam around goldenmile and then i saw the supermarket:D
the moment i stepped into the supermarket, i felt as though i was in BKK!
when i saw those glass bottles of fanta and coke, i was reminded of my BKK trips (:
and when i saw those bottles, i was thinking since they sell so many thai products, then they probably sell my overtine packets too! so indeed they do! i was grinning from ear to ear when i saw it. weehee.. now i know where to get them!
okay.. recently i have gone into an " Iced Overtine craze" ! a few weeks ago i had my very first cup of iced ovaltines at paragon's Ah mei cafe after a longlong time. I only drink ovaltines when i go to either Hongkong or bangkok. If you travel to hongkong long enough, you should realised that they don't have milo, but only overtine.
what i love is the tiny overtine packets they sell in their local convenient stores.
enough of ovaltines, let's move on to other stuff.

so last tues was my last day of SEM one. I should say that the say day ended in a very weird way? cos only abt 9 turned up for lesson. the rest either didnt come or went N class to play their CS. sad to say that we didn't take one last class photo too, and neither did we have a class celebration. only lynn eileen mich and i went to sakae for buffet. so maybe you can call that a ultra mini class dinner? haha.
how sad that it's the end of sem 1. that means we are going to split as a class.
these 4 months might sounds short to you, but to me i do not think that is short because i've learnt quite a bit in these 4 mths. Not forgetting the friends i have made that feels like i've known them for at least a year. anyways, i'm really grateful for my friends and facis. I have totally wonderful facis!!!
i'm looking forward to the 29th, class bbq (:

Things that happened for the past few days have made me stop to think.
And now I decided to take up a part time job to earn my very first dollar with my own hands(:
Indeed it's a challenge to me, but i'll try. I have already gone for my very first interview at boarders. (:
I'll be strong.

2008-08-03T16:03:00.002+08:00

Friday was a total HORRID day.
Ever since I stepped into RP, Friday was the day where I really tasted the "not so happy" part in RP.
seriously, my patience, my limits, and my tolerance level were being tested. It was so bad that I was close to tears.

I do not wish to say out the whole "story" once again, as I have already repeated myself for I don't know how many times. Thanks a lot to those people who bared with all my so called complaints, even when i was already in the indoor stadium waiting for FOP (Festival Of Praise) to start, I was still complaining. Btw, FOP was great! (:
And after having supper with my mum that night, i just sat in the car venting all my angers. I think my mum was kind of shocked to see me being so uptight, because i have never complain to her about such things before. But at the same time I felt a sense of warmth in my heart. I guess this is God's blessing in disguise as He has given me the chance to spend quality time with my mum. Even though it was just for about maybe 5 to 10mins, but it is really rare for me to have such heart to heart talks with her, so that still puts a smile on my face. (:

After thinking through, I just feel it could be because I have always been so sheltered that i have not enough experience in this aspect of life. I have not seen the bad side of things like this, as i am always surrounded by awesome awesome friends. So perhaps God wants me to know how lucky I am and at the same time wants to show me what the outside world is like.
I'll just take this as an experience then.
But one thing i must say.
Being lazy is one thing. Being insensitive to your surroundings and others is another.
If someone can be both lazy and insensitive, then i think it's time for them to do some self reflection.

All in all, friday has showed me the reasons for loving my circle of friends so much, and all the more I should treasure every single one of them.
And also, I want to Thank God for always making me feel so loved in times like this.

On a brighter note,

we had our captains ball on monday!!!:D
it was truely a time where i see our w25k spirit!
Surely, it was a day to be remembered, and it will be one of the highlights of my time in RP.
I just simple loved the time spent I have spent with you guys. It was truely enjoyable(:
Although we came in 3rd and so we are not qualified for the finals, I did not feel sad at all because I feel that the quality time and fun spent together was so much more valueable and meaningful.

W25K..... 1 2 3 WHOOSH...!!!

I MUST TALK ABOUT THIS TOO!!! HAHAHAAHAHA
GUESS WHAT! This was our FIRE DRILL! :D:D:D
Remember in sec sch, our teachers always say "Don't take anything with you, just run"
In RP, " please take everything with you even your laptops. which is actually EVERYTHING!"
We were even told the time of the firedrill, and the alarm was pathetic!
Instead of people running down, I felt as though I was taking a stroll down. The best part is people were taking photos everywhere! HAHAHAHA.
yesyes and i will never forget Asyrani's " THIS IS A STUPID DRILL..."
HAHAHAHA HILARIOUS!

My Dears,
it's time to treasure every single moment together before it's too late.

2008-07-28T12:10:00.005+08:00

I suddenly thought of what daphne used to ask me.

" what is your 5 languages of love? "

I couldn't really answer then, but now I think I have the answer(:
5 languages of love : touch, serve, gift, words, quality time.

My answer is :

1) quality time

2) words

3) touch

4) gifts

5) serve

what's yours?(:

2008-07-20T14:12:00.009+08:00

I always discover things when i do stupid stuff. Guess what, i went to dictionary.com and typed jazreel. I was hoping to find the meaning for my name, but it says no such word found:( but i found jezreel. HA.
well, i was curious so i went to search about jezreel, and found out that it's a valley! so it's called JEZREEL VALLEY, and it means "God sows" (: So cool right! haha.
All along I knew that Jezreel is a name of a place, cos i ever come across it in the bible, but i never knew that it's also a valley! i'm amazed(:
I shall visit that place one day! I will research more about this valley and blog about it!

http://net.bible.org/map.php?map=map1&block=E4 (RP has taught us to do this hahaha)

I also found out that Jezreel Valley is quite near the Sea Of Galilee (:

On wednesday I ponned school to watch the juniors match against RG, and went back to collect my cert too.
Although we lost by just ONE point, i'm so proud of our juniors because they played very well! Their fighting spirit was there, they dived for every ball, and i was so very impressed. If they continue to have such spirits, they will go far! I think they will do very well this year as they have quite a strong team. Jia You!
So pon-ing school for that day was definitely worth it! (it was stupid science lesson anyways)
Moreover, I got the chance to meet up with Jo, cheryl and xinyan!(:

We wanted to visit teachers but we could only get hold of Ms Goh and Mr Mul. but we had a great time talking to them:D Really miss SC..
It's the people who make SC a nice place to be in, but now what makes me feel so sad is to see and hear more and more teachers leaving, and to hear how some people are just so evil or rather have turned evil.
whenever i go back, what i wish and love to see is familiar faces!
But just hanging around in school, playing badminton or frisbe or just sitting at "my bench" just makes me feel happy because i still feel the warmth, and I feel "so at home" whenever I stepped into SC. Every part of the school, and even along bukit timah road are just filled with lots of memories, and i treasure them very much.
The next visit shall be Teacher's Day! :D

After that Jo xy cheryl and I went bukit timah plaza to eat the korean food for dinner! yummy!
Xy and cheryl went crazy in NTUC -.- The photos are not with me now, I'll post it up when jo sends me(:

Goodbye for now peeps!

2008-07-06T02:18:00.006+08:00

ohmy... it's already JULY!!!!

Every year i will say that time flies, but i feel this year time flies the fastest! omg

In all my years of education, i have never felt so free before. In the sense that monday to friday is solely for school and nothing else. If i want to go out, i have to wait until the weekends. but now that i am in so called tertiary education, i have SO SO MUCH freedom! I'm having too much freedom until I feel a little scared and worried. Seeing the way people choose to come to school makes me feel that school is no longer a full time thing for us, but part time. Of course, I obviously know that I have to do away with such thoughts, but it's kind of hard? Alright, so this is where self discipline comes in.

Well, last tues I poned sch! That was my FIRST time pon-ing school in my whole life!!! I told elissa and she asked me if I felt rebellious? And my answer is yes, a little. HAHA. I felt very guilty when I was told that Mr Aw was very hopeful, he thought we will turn up for the second meeting, but only jaya did! hahaha. So last tuesday, computing lesson had only abt 10 people? I really feel very bad, but i hope he will understand that it is not really because of him that we poned, but it's COMPUTING!!! gosh.

haha lynn eileen and I poned school so that i can take them to island cremery! We ended up going to corro for lemon chicken rice too :D Eating those stuff and travelling down along Bukit timah Road really brings back truckloads of memories...(:

yes finally! 4 of us finally got the time to meet up on friday for dinner at waraku and followed by dessert at swensons xD of course we did a fair bit of catching up too! I can see how our topics are changing.. this shows how much we have grown.. haha.
sosososo glad to see these wonderful people again! It just feels so good to be able to meet up with people whom you can completely relate to without having any problems or fear, because you just know each other so well that you know they will understand you(:
we should do this once every month man! And audrie you are right, we shall me lifelong girlfriends :D

I went back for SC Choir Concert with rachel and shuying! <33
I miss those two smallies! They never fail to make me laugh at their retardedness!
So of course I enjoyed myself and the concert was great too! The minute I stepped into the khoo audi, I just feel everything feels so familiar.. :D

after the concert, shuying and i followed rachel to her church. When we reached there, we met cheryl ann and jane!!! wah.. this is like our unplanned sc reunion in a church haha(:
I was so glad to hear that munching and jane are now christians! God is great!

Cheryl and i went to Bukit timah plaza to have dinner at the korean store(: yes, tofu soup! yumyum! and my ice cream at wishbone! yumyumyum! Guess what?
we were so full that we decided to walk back to school to visit teachers after the concert. it was like 9PM then. haha we walked from bukit timah plaza all the way to nanyang! mind you, i wasn't wearing the most comfy shoe so i am very proud of myself. HAHA.
but i enjoyed walking with cheryl because along the way we did quite a bit of sharing and catching up with each other's life(:

sadly, we didn't manage to see any teachers, but we had a good time talking to Mr Mu! xDDD

sigh, now we are only left with about 3 weeks together in w25k! :(:(:(
so everyone please treasure the remaining time we have as a class!

But i am going to start clearing my leaves already hehehehe! okay maybe i will not be so naughty as to clear everything, but i know i am going to pon school at least one more time to go back to SC to collect my cert. I am not at all excited about collecting the cert, but for the fact that i am going back!! I am going to visit teachers and eat from stall one to the last one! (i do not know how many stores are there now) wahahha :D:D
Can't wait CAN'T WAIT!
anybody interested to go back with me please msg me asap(:

jade and gold
new and old
laughter and tears
hopes and fears
as nearer the sky we grow...

God,
clear my heart and make it clean, open up my eyes to the things unseen.
show me how to love like you have loved me.

2008-06-15T02:52:00.014+08:00

My Last Week Of Hols....

Simon's band concert @ victoria concert hall (:

it has been a long time since I last stepped into VCH. The last time was i think sec3 or 2? where I went there for duty and also to watch the choir concert. it was FUN!(:

this time was good too, but it was band concert.

very interesting because it is very different from SC's band concert.

I find that this band concert was more entertaining because all the song they played I know almost all of them,while SC plays too sopfisticated songs. haha

((: the last time we went VCH for duty.

woohoo..
had lunch with my dearest friends at sakura(:
they claimed that the food was disappointing, but i'm fine with it because there are more varieties than sakae.
after that zhiying,cheryl and i went shopping then went to meet elissa and fush at bugis.
had a great time(:

omg and yes! I went to visit Mrs Ong with samantha rachel and amilyn!
the moment i stepped into the room, wah.. the smell of chemistry which i used to smell every thursday(: and the day we visited mrs ong so happened to be a thurday too(:
I don't know why, but there is just this smell whenever i stepped into the room, and when i went there again, it just smells so familiar(: really miss chem tuition and mrs ong, but NOT CHEM!

This is where we usually have our chem tuition(: and i will always snatch the pillow to hug and sleep :D

Mrs Ong! :D

The chem tuition gang:D lovelove!

After visiting Mrs Ong, we went to bukit timah plaza to meet ruixian and sylvia for dinner. Since ruixian was craving for her tofu soap, we went to eat the korean food(: yummy!

i wanna go again!

went to kap after that(:

wah.. totally miss kap man. that was the place where amilyn and i used to go there to mug after tuition, and sometimes after school too. I do not like to eat macs, but if you want to go kap to eat, ask me along! hahaha

btw, i miss island cremery too!!!

someone go with me!!

This is the earlier part of the week.

We had bball gathering at clarissa's house to celebrate yingxin's birthday(:

The hightlight of my hols. i went to Batam for a day! shiok.

the things there are CHEAPPPPP.(:

bought polo and puma shirts, levis jeans and two dozens of J CO donuts because each only cost 67cents!!!

KFC?! hahaha so funny.

I MISS A&W!!!

Batam's A&W is cheaper than malaysia's la!

went to their famous 933 seafood restaurant(:

I had a great hols!(: I am already looking forward to the next hols! but excluding the changing of classes! :( but when my next hols comes, it means that it's time for us to change classes already..so sad!!!

After meeting up with so many people, and hearing their complaints and how life is so much tougher now, more complicated and much more stressful, I can identify with them in all they say except for the stressful part. haha

I am not at all stress! only before and during presentations yes, but after that NO. haha

but well, i can still recall the stressful days.. hearing that they have to mug so much in JC i feel stress for them, and as compared to O's this is like many times harder. So all the best my friends!!!(: we'll can meet up again once all of your exams are over!

The one thing I asked each and every one when i meet up with them is, " So do you prefer to be in SC or to be in wherever you are now? "

The replies are all the the same, " of course SC la! " (:

And obviously my answer is the same.

No matter how much I'm enjoying my "stress free" life in school, and how much i like my class, how much i like the people, nothing can replace our time spent in SC. Even when they are in the best JCs, they always say that it is nothing compared to SC.

I guess this is probably the SC spirit(:

But I am still very thankful because God has never failed to put a smile on my face each day when i'm in school(:
I am blessed with good friends in class.

live a significant life, and be a blessing to others.

Do not die successfully, but significantly.

~ quoted from our most wonderful Ms Heng

2008-06-05T03:00:00.019+08:00

This is the first thing I did on the first day of my holidays.
COLD STORAGE KIDS RUN (:
It wasn't as crowded as standchart or great eastern, the feeling is just different but then can't be compared since it's KIDS RUN! haha.
It was a good experience anyway. some kids are just so adorable!

weehee.. we not only got CE points, free food, free shirt, free towel, free medal and ALLOWANCE $$$ too! 15bucks for volunteering! wahahaha afterall waking up early is so worth it! i woke up at 5AM k! but then since got so many benefits why not right! I want to volunteer for such events again(:

At night, xinyan and i went to watch angela zhang's concert!
hmmm.. it wasn't fantastic but it was nice(:
I can't believe that i saw her right in front of my very own eyes!! Ahhhh
Her songs are so nice...(:

And we met Rhea there too(:
she's so lucky la.. got free tickte and sat at the second row!

yes! Monday was Chomp Chomp with CEDRIC(:

cool right. haha.

we had dinner with our very on FACI(:

Although it was a rather short dinner, but I had a good time(:

One thing which cedric said to me has gotten me to think deeper, and at the same time reminded me to do my self reflection. I really think that everyone has to constantly reflect upon themselves to make sure that they are still keeping their objectives right. He is really observant to tell my character, and I think it's very true.

However, I thought I have already been trying very hard since I stepped into RP. I have been keeping a very open heart and mind towards everything, and i thought I have already been doing a good job. Until when he said that to me, I realised I've not done well enough.

Indeed I take some time to warm up to people and step out of my comfort zone. I don't know how to stress on how much i hate changes, but I just H-A-T-E I-T to the MAX! But God has been very gracious because I feel that the great change between my secondary school and poly (be it the culture, the people, the environment) didn't have that much of a problem for me because I am blessed with such good classmates and facis.

However, I am still a human. And because of that, I cannot deny that I can sense the difference and I admit I feel that I am also being challenged.

The things we like, the things we do, our different experiences, our different interests, our different beliefs, our different lifestyles, our different group of friends and even the way we speak are all different. I can say that the friends i have and the friends whom I've just made are like from total different planets! But you know what, I like everyone be it the past or the present because everyone has their own good points and i enjoy being with everyone!

I guess it's just called different types of JOY? (:

Come to think about it, I would rather have different kinds of friend than to have friends of the same kind. I feel that life is more interesting that way(:

we almost spoiled this sign board man! hahaahaha

Tuesday Audrie and Angela came over to my place for chicken porridge and of course to catch up with one another! It has been quite some time when we last saw each other. So of course we had a good time sharing with each other about school...
and we realised that being in a girls school is so much easier. i totally agree!
Not that we didn't have to think before we act, but well at least we don't have to think so much.
Now that we are in a mixed school, we have to take many things into consideration before we even say or do, which means to say that we have to know our limits.

All in all, my life in RP is so far so good. I'm still enjoying life (: It's really nothing compared to sce 4 and even p6 can! I was a lot more stressed when i was P6. sigh, can u believe it. haha.
well, I take it as a pay back time since I have not been able to enjoy since sec 3.
So now is the time!

Met up with Rui today! That woman will only call me when she is hungry!-.-
But anyway, it was great meeting up with her! and thanks for introducing me to that nice jap sandwich. yummy!

I'm looking forward to next week!
I'm sure it will be another exciting week because I'm meeting up with many more people!(:
Can't wait to see you guys(:

As what I read from the book Failing Forward,
" work on the weakness that weakens you".
Indeed. I am going to do that because I know by doing so, I will grow.

" change is a catalyst for personal growth".
I will try. I will learn.
But no matter what,
I am who I am,
and i am YOURS.

2008-05-22T00:35:00.005+08:00

EastCoast!

I had a great time on Monday! Some of us went to EastCoast Park(:

We played monkey, heart attack, concentration, childhood games, we cycled, we played bowling!

omg and i can't help it but to boast for once XD
at first Simon, Xu Gang, Eunice and I were playing one game together. AND GUESS WHAT!!!
I scored the highest!! 105points K! omg.. this shall be my bowling history! wahahaha! From what i can remember, i don't remember ever getting more than 80!
I beat the guys man!:D

But then hor... when Rahman joined us for the second game, i got the lowest:( i lost the feel of it la. haha. but well, although simon was the highest for the second game with the score of 104, and i got the lowest..60 i think. BUT!! I still got 1point higher than him k!
so that makes me the winner of the day!!:D:D
My lucky lucky day(:

Cool right! :D

What's this Simon! HAHA.

on the not so happy note.

I feel that these few days have been quite bad. I'm not stressed with school work, but personal stuff?

okay, maybe not to the extent of stress, but my heart just feels so heavy.

I have probably sighed for more than 50times in 3days.

yes, i asked myself time and again... so what are you hoping for?

But what are u thinking about man.

I feel kind of "cheated", but i don't blame anyone.

perhaps, it's just my own fault...?

I'm not sure what it should or shouldn't be, but i know for sure i will get out of this.

Just give me a break, and give me some time.

sigh.. I'll probably take this as a lesson learnt.

But whatever it is, i'll still live life with my own smile(:

2008-05-17T01:02:00.012+08:00

Class steamboat + Zhiying's Belated Birthday Dinner + Elissa and Jia's Belated Birthday Picnic

We went to try the Cheong Pang's steamboat and it sucked. We practically paid 16bucks for photos! Although this time my steamboat wasn't with the prefects, so i felt a bit different with a total different company, but I still enjoyed myself(:
well, i simply love my class - W25k!

Look at what this idiot is doing. CHAN OI YI! hahaha.

Yes! We celebrated Zhiying aka Sally's birthday at New york New york. Quite a good gathering(: Met up with those crazy people! hahahaha but i love them all(:

oh and i have to comment on NewYork NewYork's service. They service is excellent man! They even made a super cute snowman out of CANDY FLOSS for zhiying!! how cool is that!

On sunday I went to botanics to celebrate Elissa and Jia's Birthday(:

So it was a wonderful afternoon spent in botanics!

Come to think about it, I have many wonderful memories in Botanics. It was because of basketball trainings that got me to know more about botanics. (:

Sigh..last week's grades sucked! Cedric and Soi Mok didn't give me my A!!!

These few days I've been having a kind of feeling that tells me I should treasure the people around me more. Not that I have not been treasuring them, but I guess it's just not enough.

Especially after hearing Cedric's 'story', I feel so mean. I will take back all my words man. He's lesson is the most interesting(Culture!) one ,and I feel that during his lesson time passes the fastest. His facial experssions just crack me up! wahahaha.

I'm looking forward to Daphne's performance and Escape/Wild Wild Wet!
We shall spend our last 10weeks together meaningfully(:

2008-05-04T02:38:00.008+08:00

"you live for a greater purpose in life..."

your love amazes me...

This is week has been a very bad week. I don't feel as happy as usually. Things in front of me, behind me, beside me just doesn't make me feel like smiling. But well, i survived the week.. (:

News reporter - DONG SU HUA.
haha quite an interesting talk(:

Actually I think i know what makes me feel this way, but i just don't know if it's entirely because of that or it's just another not so happy week? sigh.. actually i have a lot to blog, but now when i finally settle down to blog, i don't know what to say anymore.

so now it is already my 3rd week in school. Again I Thank God for my class, but guess what. Up till now, i'm still very nervous when it comes to presentation, which is like everyday! And i still hate sci and computing lessons! I really hope that one day i will be able to proudly say that i'm no longer nervous when i present! That day shall come. No. That day WILL come!

This whole week has been an emotional week. AI( Affluence to Influence) conference has made me reflect a little about myself. Truely it has been a great 3 days conference, and it really reminded me of how fortunate i am. Or rather how fortunate i should feel.

Apart fr AI conference, I thought about a lot of stuff. So many what IFs..? Why? How? SO what? Then? What else? all came running through my head.
But I feel God has dropped a reminder into my heart " you live for a greater purpose in life".
When this came to my mind, I feel that it must be God. Truely i should live higher and greater than what is pulling me down.

I guess this is just another phase of life that i'm going through. It feels very new, so i'm probably not used to it yet. Right now, I'm trying not to think back and look back to whatever that belongs to the past, so that i can move ahead. But,May I request for a break to 'run away' for awhile please. I'm tired. From the beginning of the year till now, I've not been letting my mind rest enough. It is totally bad to start a year like that, but i believe after experiencing the 'downs', soon i will be able to enjoy the 'ups'.

I really really feel like flying somewhere for a short hols or just be alone for a week or so to just give myself sometime to clear all the rubbish that has been in my heart and mind.

I hope next week we be a better one..(:
I want the hols to come faster..

Get out of my heart
Get out of my mind
Get out of my sight
perhaps then, i will be alright.

higher than i can possible dream
your love amazes me.

2008-04-22T00:23:00.009+08:00

Celene's Birthday + SC Carnival!

I was SO glad to be back in SC again! TOTALLY totally totally miss SC to the MAX! I'm sure many shared the same feeling as me because SC was flooded with people!

At first i thought i will be afraid to see the teachers and all, but when i saw them, i felt so comforted. They are just so warm and welcoming. They are ever so encouraging and concerned, which makes me feel more at ease now.

I suddenly feel that all the stuff which i have been keeping deep down in my heart, just for My God and me to know, can continue to be kept there. This is because i know there are people who cares for me.

ahahaa from JO's cam!

AND!

I saw SOOO many familiar faces around which makes me feel so happy. Truely, SC is where i feel at home. It feels like every one who walks past you is your friend. People whom we don't often see, don't often talk, we will still call for each other and say HI with the widest SMILE and some with a warm HUG(:

Every inche of the school feels so familiar, especailly when i had to dash down to the general office to take the first aid kit. It totally reminds me of those times where i have to run up and down for errands. And at a later part, fang and i cleared up a broken mirror in the hall, which again reminded me of our Prefect's Days!( okay.. what u may call 'sai gang') but! i felt truely happy then and i just kept smiling (:

I MISS THOSE DAYS!

HOHO. and look at the above picture with jennet fang and i? Isn't that place familiar?!

Yes! you are right, that's the STARLIGHT ROOM! haha last time people used to say that you either go in there for very good news or very bad news. But of course this time i went in for good news(:

just spent some time talking to Ms Goh and fooling around. haha! But when i entered the room, immediately i told Ms Goh, THIS IS LIKE GEOG ONCE AGAIN! i seemed to have my extra geog lessons there. (:

So now you know why i love SC so much? That's because it's a place where great friendships are built, and great relationships with teachers are formed.

Where else could i ever find anything better?

Indeed,
I'm a girl in BLUE, and i ain't BLUE about it. (:
And i am really Thankful to be one of the girls in BLUE!
My heart for SC will always be true.

So there.

2008-04-15T00:57:00.003+08:00

School

alright i'm here to blog(:

so it has been a week + 1day of school and i am so glad to say that i'm so thankful to have such awesome people in my class! Really Thank God for that!
my classmates never fail to make me laugh and so yes, that is why i managed to drag my feet out of bed every morning, and board the train to squeeze with all the working adults. :D

last week went on smoothly and i enjoyed myself very much too(:
so what's new in my new environment right? heh.. practically everything. everything is new.
we have a lot of freedom in RP. just imagine the total opposite of SC's sch rules. ( we eat in class, walk out of the class anytime you want etc..) haha.
BUT then.. the food here is so much more ex... and i eat more than what i eat in sc.. so means that i'm always poorer :( but the food is quite good la.

In Rp is presentations every single day. I am still very scared for presentations(u will know if u know me well. haha), but i'm not as scared as usual anymore. At least i can finally be a little more calm to think on the spot before i say my stuff.
I'm very thankful for that too!

okay so back to today's lesson. O.M.G. i totally totally hated today's lesson.
MATHS AND COMPUTING IS 200% NOT MY CUP OF TEA!
i cannot imagine how people study IT?! a good question to ask my own brother!
i seriously rather learn Amath than to do computing!
i am already dreading next week's lesson.. please do not make me start hating mondays from now.
Anyways, i've survived the day and i hope next monday will be more enjoyable. (:

All in all, I wanna Thank God for always making me feel so blessed. On my first day of sch, many msges came in just to ask me how's sch. one msg really makes my day, and more than one makes me feel so blessed. I was so touched that my dear friends can even remember when i'm starting school. I love you all lots.
so to all the people who have been asking me about school since january until now, haha yes, i've finally started school. you all can't wait for me to say that right! stop scolding me la.. now i have to wake up as early as you guys k! but, thank you for always being so concerned. (:
i'm sure you all know who you are. as long as you've ever asked me about sch and all, you are the one(:

everything seems fine at the moment, and i hope it will continue to be.
Of course nothing beats SC. and so i can't wait for SC carnival!
I MISS YOU, YOU AND YOU!
can't wait to see all the familiar faces again!

i'll keep going.

2008-03-26T04:24:00.009+08:00

Wait Wait Wait....

last week i went down to place my bet. i call it a bet because it's a decision which i myself don't even know if it's the right one. but, i have given my hardest thoughts about it, so no regrets.

i bought my laptop and found myself a lime green laptop sleeve. :D finally found something not so dull. it's so difficult to find nice ones k! people.. pls tell me if you know where sells nice ones!

since the beginning of the year till now, i feel that it has been so called my "waiting months". these 3 months have been filled with waitings. wait here wait there... and what makes it so bad is the length of the waiting time. it's enough to kill me! seriously, i have never waited so much before, be it for people or for things.wow, those times really tested my patience. i'm so glad that i've walked through them, and i hope i will never have to wait for so much again. but guess what, right now there are two more things which requires me to wait.

alright, so what have i been doing since i last blogged? hmmm... i have just mastered majong! wahaha. quite fun la(: but i'm not addicted to it.. only sometimes hand itchy.heh.
oh and i have been working in my HP shop for all these while. A very good experience i should say, but sometimes it really tests your patience and anger management skills!! i confess that i've screamed and yelled at customers before and i feel quite bad for some but most of the time is because they ask for it k! Sundays really kill me..

today i saw some students having excursions around little india.ohman....that totally reminds me of those days where we were taken aroud singapore and we will always be given those booklets to write in! hahaha oh and our malacca trip! really miss those lots! but of all the excursions, what i like most is the battle box trip when we were in sec2. That's because i like to learn about singapore's history. haha. oh and the kranji memorial. i wanna go again man..

ohwell.. i'm left with a few more days till my 6 months of hols come to an end. my orientations are starting next week..:( i'm totally dreading school...!!
but i'm glad that these few months i got to meet up with quite a lot of my dear friends :D

YOON EUN HYE, GONG YU are my new love!
i wanna learn korean!!

annyong!

The Life.

2008-02-18T23:42:00.008+08:00

today as i was sitting in the train, i saw this mother reading a book to her really cute daughter.
the girl looked really happy and has this really sweet smile on her face as her mother was patiently reading to her. like every kid, she's very active and she even lifted her shirt to tell the stranger who was sitting beside her that she's wearing a swimming costume under her clothes! haha how cute is that.

i was just thinking how i wish i can be like her, just following my mother to wherever she brings me to. No stress and always looking forward to the next day, knowing that tomorrrow will be an even better day.
How i wish life can be just so simple.

come to think about it, i think my happiest time so far was when i was in kindergarden. I love to go to sch when i was in SC pri too, but still can't beat my kindergarden times.
those times are what i call JOY. pure joy.
i even remember my maid used to switch on popeye so loudly in the morning to wake me up. heh.

life is getting harder and harder. However, i know through it all, i'm blessed. and i really have to Thank God for that. but there are some things that i can't help but ask God, why?
why why why?
but because i know that God always has his reasons for everything, hence, my faith never dies.
even when my loved ones are not supportive of me, even if i have to walk through the uneven paths myself, i feel that i'm not alone.
As your love and peace have always been my strengh.

is you who calmed the raging sea that come crashing over me.
i'm not giving up.

2008-01-30T01:28:00.000+08:00

how i wish i could rewind the past. i'm starting to miss so many things now.

last time it took me days. so i guess now it'll take me months.

but you were right, life still goes on.
when i am weak, you are strong.
you are my feet when i can't move on.

so God, show me how to live.

you said mountians would move,
kingdoms would fall when i call on your name.
i still believe so. my faith and my trust in you still remain ever strong.

so God, show me the way.

2008-01-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

From 19th November........ :: my nov and dec hols :: - probably one of the best ever

1. prom
2. basketball camp
3. went KL for two days
4. vacation bible school ( VBS )
5. china trip
6. Melbourne trip
7.new year eve’s in church

:: Prom ::

It was quite a fun night where everyone is free from stress! although i still must say that the process of prom really irritated me! from choosing hair to makeup to dress to shoes. omg.. it was really TIRING. so i don't really look forward to another prom. maybe once in a life time is enough. haha. ohyes and we stayed in goodwood park hotel(: i liked the hotel very much! i think this is the first hotel i have ever stayed in singapore and it is also one of the best hotels i've stayed(:

:: Basketball Camp ::

This year we had our bball camp at aloha loyang. had bbq on the last night and we spent the rest of the time talking to our juniors. we talked until ard 3am! so we didn't sleep, we waited until 6am and went to see sunrise(: but we were facing the wrong direction so yea.. couldn't literally see the sun rise. all we saw was the sky becoming brighter. haha.

:: KL ::

[ i took this beautiful photo when we were on the way back to singapore. we stopped over at some place to eat and when we were abt to head for our car, we saw this beautiful view in front of us! so we stood there and watch the sun set. i have the pictures of the sun slowly going down until it disappears but i'm too lazy to upload. heh. ]

yes i went KL for two days. haha. this time i didn't take a bus in neither did i take a plane. this time my brother drove in. well, it was only the 3 of us. me, my brother and my mum. this is my first time travelling to KL by car! i dont think i've sat in a car for such a long period of time before. so far i've only went to johor by car. well but my brother drove really fast. we made it in to KL in 2.5hrs! haha. well i did go shopping but i wasn't in my shopping mood AT ALL! so... i didn't buy much. only bought 3 shirts and a pair of shoes (which is too big!).
on the last day we walked down to KLCC which was v near my hotel. i find that place quite cool cos they have everything there! they even have zara, mango and topshop! oh and A&W!! (: and dunkin doughnuts too. i was lucky, isetan was having sale! and i got really cheap nike and puma shirts :D

:: China Trip ::
Hangzhou.Wuxi.Nanjing.Suzhou.Shanghai

Hangzhou

Shanghai

it has been a long time ever since i took a tour. i think the last time was when i went to korea in p3? not including the time when i went to NZ for my geog trip. but this time i went to china by tour. okay there was something wrong with my flight schedule. LOOONG story and i'm sure i have told quite a few of you about it already. so i'm not going to type it out. but instead of flying on the 8th we flew on the 9th. it was REALLY an experience man. we couldn't believe it when we knew there was a mistake in the flight.

my tour group was already very small. only made up of 10 people. but bcos of some problems, we ended up with 5 people. it was really different cos i've never been for a tour with only so few people. i prefer it this way of cos(: smaller the better! out of all the cities i've visted, or do u call them province? anyway, of all the places i've visited, i think i like nanjing and shanghai the most. i don't really like hangzhou cos the pace of life is really slow that is so boring and also because they live a very simple life. acc to my tour guide, he says that all they like to do is play cards. ohwell.
i don't really know much about wuxi so no comments. only went to that high class restaurant to eat and went to the pearl factory. haha.
when i was in nanjing, it was their 70th anniversary of the massacre. i can tell that until today, they still hate the japanese very much. apparently, every year some japanese do come back to sort of like apologise for what they have done. i believe that they themselves are ashamed of what they have done, if not they wouldn't have tried changing the history in their jap textbooks.but guess what!! since it's the anniversary, the museum is not open to the public! so i couldn't go!! i was so dissappointed. that was what i wanted to see the most. and i also missed the part where at 10am, there will be the siren and all the cars on the road have to press 3 long horns. well, i missed that cos i was in that stupid jade factory. sheesh. nvm, i told myself that next time i will go back to nanjing again to visit the museum!

next is suzhou. well, nothing much actually. only went to the silk factory and this place which i forgot the name. heh. oh i bought a 80bucks pillow and a 120bucks quilt which i'm sleeping on now. very comfy cos they are made of silk(:
my last stop was in shanghai. the cruise along the yellow river (huang pu jiang) was great(: it was really nice to stand outside the boat with cold wind being blown at you. it feels really good man(: the scenary was beautiful too! oh and the pearl tower. actually i dont find the pearl tower anything great, just that it is really tall(i forgot how many stories high though. 70? 90?) but it looks very nice from the outside when it is lighted up at night. okay and so my last two days was spent shopping in shanghai. went to qi pu lu where the wholesale place is. and then went to nanjing lu to shop at night. i didn't buy a lot cos the clothes there are mostly long sleeves, and some the prices are about the same as singapore or some even more ex. but still, it was quite nice to shop there(: i believe if i go shanghai during summer, i will spend a bomb there. haha.

so all in all, it was quite a memorable trip i should say. rather interesting and fun as there was a balance between shopping and sight seeing (:

surprising summary of the few things i bought: 1 jeans, 2 jackets, 3 shirts, 1 bag, 2 earrings, 2 necklaces, 2 wallets.
NO SHOES :(((

:: Melbourne Trip ::

i went to melbourne for about 10 days. this is my first time taking a plane by myself. not so scary afterall(: melbourne and china is a big contrast. it is like a two different world. firstly, the toilets in melbourne are super clean! hahaha. and shopping is like 10 times better!
i thank God for lettine me meet so many wonderful people(: the people in the pictures are some of the people whom i met in melbourne. apart from audrie, the others are new faces, but i'm really glad to know them(: my time spent in melbourne wouldn't have been so wonderful without them. oh and the food which i really miss is SCONES! love it man!

i bought quite a bit in melbourne, but i would have bought even more if my mum was there! haha. i'm still quite satisfied la, but again i didn't get SHOES! :(((( and i only bought ONE bag. there is so much to say about melbourne that is too long to type it out. but there is one thing i have to say. that is, i feel really blessed when i was in melbourne. i have learned a lot when i was there, i have also seen and experienced a lot. And i Thank God for making my 2007 nov and dec holiday such a wonderful and memorable one(:

2007-11-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

I'M FINALLY HERE TO BLOG AGAIN!! ohman it has been a long lon time ever since i last blogged. i wanted to blog soon after o's but i just couldn't find time to do so. haha how weird right.. i know it's after o's and i should have all the time in the world, but no! cos of P-R-O-M! well but i'm more or less done with the shopping and with the other stuff(: okay before i say anything more, i would like to say IT'S OVER!!! yes! o's is O-V-E-R! :D

so let's see what have i been doing since after o's till today. i went around searching for prom dress, went for lunch with old/new friends, massage, manicure, haircut, had graduation and then prefect's chalet(farewell party). i have been so occupied that i have yet to catch up on my SLEEP!

Indeed i'm happy that o's is over, but i'm not exactly happy that i've graduated from SC :( so sad.. 10 wonderful years have gone by so fast. it felt like it was just a few months ago when i entered SC pri. so many things are still fresh in my mind! i have no idea how to express how i'm feeling now, but i just feel that i going to start missing so many people/things. but firstly, i'm really glad that i've pulled through sec 4. it has really been a very tough year for me, but because of this, I grew stronger in character and in faith too. All thanks to God and great teachers who has been constantly guiding me through, telling me that i'm able to do it, and always reminding me that 'it is the tough gets going'. Although graduation was rather short and simple, but it meant a lot.

We also had prefects farewell at a chalet(: haha this year’s faewell was the ‘happiest’ one that I’ve been! As in not that we are very happy about leaving the board, but just that no one cried. We sang quite a few songs and it brought back beautiful memories which I will never forget. Each of us had to say something to the juniors, and as almost everyone knows that I’m always so scared about ‘this kind of thing’ haha. Well… of cos I did say my piece, but it wasn’t a full piece of course. So I would like to take this opportunity to finish it off.
To all my dear juniors, you all have really been so so SO awesome! All of you are always so cheerful and bubbly, always there to bring joy to others. Often when I’m feeling down, just by seeing you all will help to brighten my day(: you guys just makes me feel so warm. You guys are such dear friends, we can just sit and talk about anything and everything. esp nonsense! hahaha. How great is that man? Where can you find such friends? .Also, thank you so much of preparing for the farewell(: I’ll miss working with you all! Love you all to bits!! All the best for invest!

Come to think about it, it has been three whole years in SCPB.
From ‘Ab intra’(from within) to ‘on board’ and then to Ohana(family).
I could still remember there was a time where I was on the verge of giving up, but thank goodness I didn’t. During the farewell, God has clearly showed me that I have made the right decision then. I just feel so happy being around with all the lovely prefects. It feels so different. (: As I said, for me being a prefect was never easy, but the prefects are the ones who make up for everything, and have made everything feels so worthwhile. I feel that being a prefect is one of the best things that have happened to me. I guess my life in sc wouldn’t have been as memorable. So now as I stepped out of the board, I would like to say that I feel so honored to be given a chance to serve sc(: All thanks to my friends
Who gave me such an opportunity(:

Apart from farewell, we still have work to do! we had to prepare for prom stuff. Although the chalet was meant for us to put work aside, but once again, we worked together, probably for the last time, to get the awards for prom done. It was so heart warming to see everyone busy at work, no complains, and all so co operative. This is what I really like about prefects. Although we have a lot to do, but we enjoy what we do. We can talk and laugh, but at the same time we’ll get all the things done. It was really funny though, because many of us felt that we are like some factory workers hahaha. That reminds us about SS- to improve the skills of workers. Hahahaha! Yea those type.

I would like to Thank God for blessing me with the friendships which I’ve made throughout my 10 years in SC. Today I finally realised how blessed I am to be given so many friends whom I treasure so much.
I’ll miss SC, my friends and teachers… SC will always be my second home!

Once an SC girl, always an SC girl. I strongly believe so(:

2007-09-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

okay prelims have just finished and i'm finished too.
so let's just not talk about it.

although it was such a crazy one week hols, but i managed to squeeze some time out to go to chinese garden for a walk with my niece and newphew n some others(: although i feel that 12bucks was a rip off but well as what my mum said it is an annual thing so not too bad.

this is quite cool right? haha can u figure out what animal this is?

when i was at chinese garden, there wasn't many people.. so it was quite boring. not that i like crowded places, but the 'mood' for the occasion was not there yet. i guess it was too early, or maybe half of my heart was still on my books? but anyway it was quite interesting la. i mean we don't usually get to see all these right? oh, their theme for this year is some underwater thing.
ohya, and there were little rides for little kidos at a reasonable price too. haha unfortunately i'm way too big to sit the rides:( but it brought back fonds memories though(:
instead of sitting the rides, i went to play those funfair games. i played one game and i thought it was actually a very silly game. but i just wanted to play even though it was also a rip off. haha alright, if you guys are sick and tired of your preparations, maybe you can try going there to unwind a little(: mid autumn festival is around the corner!

of all the things i saw, i like this the most as it is my 'masterpiece' xD

2007-09-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

okay it's time to update!

well, yesterday was teacher's day celebration. come to think about it, it was like the last 'event' i was celebrating of my year.can you imagine next year when i go back to SC, i will be going back as an ex-SC girl. this is how fast time flies and i'm not ready to leave at all.

we had ace's day in the morning which was quite boring. heh. ohwell this year we didn't have to crack our heads to come up with dance movesd:D we already had our fair share of that for the past 3 years k! this year is the time for us to sit down and enjoy.

The highlight for yesterday was the performance! omg.. hahahaha it was really soooooo hilarious to see your own teachers dancing/acting/singing! hahahha even ur own principal was part of it too. the most exciting part was to see all those teachers whom you least expect to see dancing or singing! i mean can u imagine one of your super fierce and strict teacher dancing on stage?! the minute when they started performing, i saw some people rolling on the floor! it was really funny.
that really made my day. i had a good time laughing and cheering(:

The speech given by our senior was very heartwarming too. it was so good to hear that so many of our ex seniors are doing so well. many of them are very outstanding leaders too(: this is what SC is about. what leads to such results are the fact that we have good teachers, good culture and good spirit.
once a SC girl, always a SC girl. i totally agree with that.
i'm so proud to be a SC girl(:

2007-08-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!:D

i stole this from my newphew haha. his is so much nicer than ours right! hisis a balloon.

so this year is my last year celebrating national day in school. quite sad:( but i had quite a fair bit of fun yesterday!(: ohyes and this year amelia and i managed to get tickets for the NDP preview!

what's so special is the floating platform. but what i don't like about this year's is that the fireworks display was very short:( that's what i feel, but amelia thought was very long. well, it could be because it was just a preview. maybe today it will be long?
ohyes! i was so happy when i saw the condutor for this year's NDP. Tsung Yeh! :D i remember when i was in p6 or p5, the choir girls went to the esplanade to sing and he was the condutor then. at first i thought he is going to be boring cos to me all chinese orchestra music makes me wanna sleep. To my surprise, he's is different. I don't know why, but i can appreciate his music. It is just so nice. i loved the esplanade performance too(: the entire erm should i call that a musical? anyways the entire musical was really good. No doubt, the orchestra played really well during NDP and once again i could appreciate the music cos tsung yeh was the one who produced it(: next time when he has a concert or something i'll go!

beautiful isn't it?(:

this is one of my favourite part(:

celebration in school.

<33

everything seems to be coming to the end.
everything seems to be of the last for us.
treasure every moment.

2007-07-20T15:00:00.000+08:00

(: i finally have time to blog!

today is Racial Harmony Day(: and 4CO is the only class where everyone wore their costumes! so cool right, heh. but this year's programme is rather short. not as interesting as past years.

oooo and i realised that tekka market is actually quite interesting. the shops around tekka market sell quite nice bags(: and are quite resonable too! great discovery man. hahaha

ohwell.. since the teachers do not like their faces to be seen on the net, i shall post one that is without them. my lovely class- 4CO! i'm sure you all wouldn't mind seeing your faces here right... i think you all will be even more glad than anything. haha.

i feel that nowadays little things make me happy.(esp FRIDAYS) For example racial harmony day, it allows us to take some time off books to go find our costumes and so on. sigh... sec4 has simply no life la. it is getting tougher and tougher each day, but also nearer and nearer to prelim and o's. there's not much time left before we leave SC, so i hope everyone of us will treasure the time that's left before it's time for us to say Goodbye.

SCPB!(:

2007-06-19T18:30:00.000+08:00

A trip to Guangzhou(:

Guangzhou is not as fashionable as Hongkong, but there are still things to shop for(: It is a place where people from many other countries going there to buy their goods. so a lot of places are selling things in dozens. is like the more you buy, the cheaper it'll be. quite a good experience as i seldom go to countries that are less develop, but Guangzhou is a less develop country. i like the roadside stores(: their food is cheap and nice! even their restaurants are very cheap, really worth it! but according to my mum, their roadside stores are getting lesser and lesser. i guess they are trying to develop the country, so they have to get rid of all those illegal stores. quite sad cos it is stalls like that which make the place more interesting.

this is really yummy!!

this too!

luggage of 4 people. hehe

the last thing i bought was this!!(:

alright, back to work now!

2007-06-12T09:54:00.000+08:00

i love the beach! it was so pretty..

I'm back from DESARU(: i had a lot of fun there!!:D we played tennis, we swam, went to the beach, played pool, pingpong(once we played with this stranger who asked if he could play with us. quite weird but we still did play la) etc. i have learned a new game which is pool, but i still suck at it. hahaha but very fun!

okay i'm off to Guangzhou now(:

is time to slow down to search for what i've lost all this while;
so Goodbye.

hopefully i'll come back with a smile

2007-06-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

ahaha yes sarah i'm gonna blog about it now!

yesterday was a really bad day. seriously... i almost killed 3 people!
after Amath remedial, sarah and i were walking out of school. after saying bye to sarah, i stood outside the international school gate ( e one next to ours) to flag for cab. the minute i flagged, i saw a taxi which is about to stop for me. BUT GUESS WHAT! the taxi driver didn't realise that his sudden stop will cause the motocycle, which was moving at quite a fast speed behind him, to stop in time! SO when the cab stopped, a sec later the motocycle hit the back of the taxi( i saw the light of the taxi broken into pieces in the air!) , he lost control and went onto the pavement where SARAH was walking, but i think bcos he saw her, he turned to the right and bang into the tree and fell. omg.. can u imagine if he didnt turn his bike! sarah will be killed! sarah and i just stared at each other in shock!! we have no idea what to do... we didn't even know if we could lift up the bike for the man to stand up. but Thank God, the people at the bus stop were kind enough to rush out to help!

i hope the motocyclist is alright..he could still stand up but i think he probably has fractured his leg. i really feel very very very guilty! i should have stayed behind to see if the guy is alright! AHHHH i'm never going to take cab from there ever again!!

2007-06-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

so what's new?

not that new la but last week we went to watch macbeth's play. i was kind of looking forward to it, thinking that it SHOULD be quite interesting. i won't say that it was dead boring but considering the fact that i fell asleep for abt 15mins of the play, i can't say that it was that interesting either. haha

some of us(:

ohyes as for the preparation towards chinese o's, amilyn, celene, jo and i were out studying together for two days.( not the for the whole day la) apart from studying, we did treat ourselves too(: on fri we even had prata for supper at upper bukit timah! yummy! these few days i'm kind of prata- craving . hehe.

ooo yes and ytd i had tim sum for supper(: wan tou sek(sp?) have u heard of it before? not that great but their chee cheong fan is very yummy! one of the best i ever tasted. it was one of those road side stores and i felt kind of weird sitting by the road side eating cos i only do that when i'm overseas. so i had the feeling that i wasn't in singapore. haha. strange but it's true! i mean i'm sure that there are things which you have only done it before in other countries but not in your own country right? this is one of my own example. heh. and i think i still prefer eating along road side stores and hawker centres cos i find that the food there is nicer and u can order a lot of things. but how often do i get to eat at those kind of places man.

2007-05-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

a lot of things had happened since the last time i blogged. definitely too much to say, but it just feels like i'm on a roller coaster ride. it's filled with lots of ups and downs. unfortunately there are more downs than ups.

after all this while, i came to realise one thing. and this is one of the most important things that i have learnt.
i have said before that if your happiness is dependent on others, it can be easily taken away.
but i have also realised that if you depend on something/someone as your motivation, it can also be easily taken away.
However, there is someone who can motivate you, and he is also the only one you can fully trust - God.
apart from God, you can be your own motivator as well. In this way, no one can stop you from being motivated, no one can upset you, and no one can make you feel discouraged! Instead, you will grow stronger.

life still goes on....

2007-05-03T20:50:00.001+08:00

guess what? i played badminton today! hahaha i was supposed to be at the hall for chem mentoring cos she thought that we could still do chem while she has her break. but who knows man.. the cca teacher was there today! eeeks. so well.. i did a bit of chem and went to play badminton.:D

after playing among overselves the coach came over and wanted us to do some group drills.despite me telling him like a hundred times that i'm not in badminton but was only there for fun, he still asked me to do the drills with him together with 3 others. so well i did lor. haha omg.. feels kind of weird cos i don't know badminton man. but i like the drills, very fun(: we did lifting, smashing, locking(?), dropping(?) something like that la. hahaha. i was a little scared cos i'm like playing with a coach. anyway he will serve the the shuttle and then we have to lift or backhand or...whatever and then move a few steps back then smash.then among the 3 of us we will rotate in a triangle. fun man!(: then comes the one to one thing. as in at first it was one shuttle per person... then later on he took the whole row of abt 16 shuttles and then start hitting at u and u are suppose to smash or lift it back to him. that was tiring. but i managed to hit back quite a lot of times:D surprisingly man.haha. so fun! i don't understand why the badminton girls doesn't like it?!heh.

ohwells..finally there is something for me to look forward to:D Evening by the pond! i hope it will be very enjoyable!! i really need a good laugh....(:

although your words have hurt me deeply,
but because of that i am even more motivated.
so thanks?

2007-05-01T13:19:00.000+08:00

i had the hardest time in ytd's geog lesson. really.. i felt that i was going to die or something. i felt that time was passing really slowly.. not that i wanted to fall asleep( in fact i was quite wide awake the whole of ytd) but having to control myself throughout the whole period seems just quite impossible. well.. i did it for two periods and i could still smile at people along the corridor. i'm amazed.

my mood was totally ruined and so were my plans for after school. all i wanted to do was leave school as fast as possible. what amazed me even more was that i could still go n eat lunch with my
friend and acted like it was my normal happy day. deep inside i was feeling really terrible.

finally when i was back in my room, i was able to relieve what i was really feeling.
i'm totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally disappointed with myself.

i never knew that pride is so important to me.

i don't feel like going to school ever again.

2007-04-27T23:13:00.000+08:00

Thank God is FRIDAY!

blogging seems to be the last thing on my list now. in fact i think it is not even in my list anymore. i'm always just so press for time. sigh.

okay, so what's the highlight for the month of april?hmmm.. let me think.

yes! SPIRIT OF THE CLASS!(: although we did not win, but i still feel very happy after the whole thing. i guess it is really not just abt the winning part, but for the fact that we did it AS A CLASS. don't you agree? i mean when are you able to get the chance to put up something as a class like this? so i guess it's the effort that we had put in that makes us feel satisfied. it is definitely better than not doing anything at all. at least we did make the effort to come back to fix the banner and improve on our cheer, and at least we know we did try! That's the way man CO!(:

next is SPORT'S DAY!
well.. frankly right, i think this is my worse sport's day in all my SC years. i think the atmosphere was very dead. i don't know why the people didn't seem that enthu abt everything. they weren't really cheering a the top of their voices..only some. i mean it was our last sport's day(i'm referring to sec4s), but everyone seems to treat it like we have many more to come.
or maybe it was just me? cos i mean not like i tried doing anything special this year to make my last sport's day a more memorable one. but well.. it's over. somehow i still did enjoy a little la.
after that, jia celene and i went down to clementi to eat our prata!( the one near NUS) shiok man!

last saturday after amath remedial, amilyn and i met Ms SOH(laoshi) at the bus stop! we were so happy to see her!! only then i really feel that i really miss her man. her lessons are so much more interesting! alright, then we went down to holland v to walk aroud first(i'll say more later(: ) before heading down to ulu pandan CC to support Chinese Drama SYF. i know hearing the name ULU PANDAN gives u a feeling that the CC must be some really gross one for old people or smth right.. but u are wrong man! i think it is one of the nicest ones man! hahaha.
anyway, so we went to the auditorium and it was very packed. still managed to share shits though. well.. i couldn't understand most of the play.. i can only understand here and there, but i think it's worth watching though!

And also, i realised that i have been eating a lot this month! when i'm stress right, i tend to eat more. and is really much more! i will feel like eating a lot of things! even some things which i don't use to eat i will feel like eating! so i went around buying food :D let me state some of my recommendations(:

Food Recommendations:

1) Holland Village Market's CHICKEN RICE!
( it tastes so nice especially with the vegetables! i think the lunch we ate during st john's trip was ordered from there. cheap and nice :D)

2) OLEH OLEH OH - TCC.
( yum! is a chocolate + a little coffee type of cake. when u eat u will taste mostly chocolate, but a little of coffee too. oh! and the bottom layer is oreo crust i think. but anyway, the whole thing just taste very yummy la! (: )

3) Chocolate Truffle - HANS.
( i didn't know that Hans cake can be so nice. haha. well is only after eating jia's/cel's cake then i get to know abt it. YUMMY MAN! really love it! i love the top chocolate coating the MOST(: )

4) PineappleTarts- HANS.
( other than buying the chocolate truffle, i also bought their pineapple tarts. is not very fantastic or anything. not the best that i have ever tasted, but to me is quite nice la(: )

ohman.. the month of MAY is going to be an even more hectic month! so many things are happening in MAY. darn. ohya! and we had our napfa today(: i still managed to get my Gold this year; Thank God. haha i thought this year i might not be able to get it. but well.. :D i think that the teachers who u go for your items play a very important part so must choose wisely man! and also, i survived my 2.4 man! haha what makes this year's 2.4 run so special is that we ran under the rain/drizzle!
and also, i want to Thank God for guiding me through my chem test. i PASSED(:
MORE tests coming up! HELP!!

'' if your happiness is dependent on others; it will easily be taken away''

i'm very tired.. really tired.
how long more am i able to last?
i don't say. i don't show. doesn't mean i don't know.
just don't make me say it.
(i'm warning you)

2007-04-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

although i'm down with fever, but it seems like this is the only time given to me to update too. haha. i'm feeling a little better now, at least i can sit up now(: not like in the morning, i thought i was going to die cos my fever was very high.

anyways, so what has been happening from the time i last updated? i went to eat pepper lunch quite a few times! hahaha opps.. maybe that's why i become like that? heh.
a week ago i attended my cousin's birthday. that LITTLE boy is SO lucky.. he has such a nice cake! i felt a little odd cos they are all little children!

there was this magician too. The kids are so innocent, little things can make them happy. i can't believe that i was once like them, and i want to be like that again!

Next is my St John trip. we did the same thing as what we have done in New Zealand. so i felt that there wasn't a need for me to go, but well, i didn't know that we were going to do the same thing. anyway no harm going, as this might be my last field trip in SC. i feel quite sad saying this, but it's true. well, i had some scoldings before going. which i'm not going to be angry about anymore, because i think is not worth my energy. Just like to let 'you all' know that i know what i'm doing.

some pics(:

ohyes! this one cannot miss! for all my years, i hate doing entrance gate duty. but 'timmy' made me look forward to it xD timmy is this little boy that we named. his real name is yuku.(not too sure about the spelling) one day he came in this superman outfit! i can't explain how cute he is, but he is one of the cutest i have ever seen! so on my last day of duty, i brought reese's for him. hahaha. guess what! his hands were too small to hold the two reese's! sooo cute!

yesterday, SC played against nan yang. it was a FANTASTIC game! this is one of the most exciting games! really.. ur heart can drop out. i cheered until i almost cried. it was really very well played! although we lost to them by a point, but i think that we have won them in terms of our spirit. the never say die spirit was so strong! i'm really very proud of them! although i cheered until my throat almost died, but it's all worth it! we have never won nanyang before, but ytd's match was a very big impovement. one day i'm sure SC will beat them. Jia you!

2007-03-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

woah. one week has just passed so quickly. i sort of feel that i wasted my one whole week. not that i did nothing that's why i'm feeling i wasted my week.. but is that i did everything other than studying.

so during the one week hols, i did quite a couple of things. apart from tuitions, i went to play bball and badminton with amelia(: haha we took like an hr or so to find a court that we could play. we landed up at the toa payoh cc which i didn't even know it existed. heh. oh! on this same day, i played badminton with my MUM too! hahaaha surprised? even i'm surprised.. my bros too. ahahaha. well, of cos it was my idea. she wanted to play squash though. she told me that she played for DBS and she came in first for the first division and blah blah.. i thought that she was just bullshitting. actually i think it may be true u know. hahaha throughout my whole 16 years, she has nv mentioned to me about squash before. so how do u expect me to believe man.

lz jo yenxi and i went to sengkang to do our geog project.. after that we went to compass point to play arcade!=D i found fat bessie! my childhood game. sounds familiar to u too? hehe. it's just a machine whereby u throw balls into the bessie's mouth and her stomach will grow fatter.HAHA. i played air hockey with jo, and she called me ROUGH! excuse me.. u are too gentle! not that i'm rough okay!=] i'm always up for another game!!

sat was my insane family exercise day or somthing. cos my bros, my mum and i went to played badminton together((: i should have asked my dad along. how sad. anyway, we played an hour of badminton xD fUN! althought it was just an hour, but i felt tired. more tired that i played with my mum.. maybe is because playing with guys is different. they'll run more.. or maybe is just my stamina la-_-
after that my bros and i wanted to play bball, but we didnt bring the ball along!so dumb. so we went to run at the park instead. haha it was already 9plus btw. i felt so good after that(:
now is back to study study study. i want to get over this!

things really don't come your way.
maybe even if you take that extra mile.
perhaps, what you can do is stay positive.
pls pls , let me be REALLY happy for once.

2007-03-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

wow. it's already the month of march. i can't believe it! so fast!! it's already the hols! well.. not already a hols since we have like a month's worth of work to do! soooo tiring...
and as mr ang said, it will get worse! AHHH...
nothing much really happened la... always the same routine.. work work work and more work. what i can remb most vividly is the bball finals against rgs. although i wasn't playing, but i felt really sad when we lost. but there again, they definitely fought hard! so well... don't give up man! there's still nationals to go=D i'll still be cheering all the way!!(:

this week's service was held at YWCA cos it was a combined youth service(: Pastor Glen Berteau came to preach today. i heard that he is/was a mentor of natascha and daniel bedingfield. can u believe it, we had a 3.5hrs of service today! although it was really long, but really good too! this is one of the most powerful services i have attended so far! we sang more praise and worship songs today. it felt sooooo good(: towards the end of the service, what brought me to tears was when i saw so many people went forward when pastor Glen called for an altar call. i'm sure it was such a touching sight for many others too.

come into my heart Lord
let your presence fall
let it rain down on me
as your peace falls upon me
your spirit fills me up
i feel your strength rise within me
your love takes hold of my heart

this is my heart's cry
to worship you alone
and to know your voice
with all that i have
with all that i am
i will PRAISE YOUR NAME

2007-02-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

went for financcial literacy today. it was quite boring during the first part, but it got better as it goes. quite fun la, we learn to buy shares (: but still, i think the course was a little too lengthy.
i feel kind of slack for this two days. i stayed up till 4.30 watching my girl=D XU GONG CHAN!!! my new love <3

i forgot to talk about my FIRST NC16 movie! hehe. protege is my first NC16 movie. haha u must be going huh... but eh.. i'm a good girl k, i don't watch nc16 moives when i'm not yet 16. haha. well, i watched it with amelia during cny(: it was good, but kind of freaky! i didn't dare to look during some of the scenes. guess what. after the movie i was telling amlia how freaky the movie was then sunddenly when the lift door open, a girl fainted in front of me!!! AHHHH i almost got heart attack!! the best part is.... it turned out to be elissa's sister! hahaahaha it was really funny cos elissa was telling me her sister fainted at cine and i told her that i saw a girl fainted too and we then realised that we were talking abt the same person --- her sister! HAHA.

last saturday after church, i went to watch this chinese drama (Game Play) with shuying jennet and munching at esplanade, and we ate pepper lunch at douby exchange too. yummy!
quite surprising that i agreed to go and watch chinese drama, cos last year when shuying, munching and i went to watch 'huang chen' ( hwa chongs's popular chinese drama production where almost every one in sch is involved), half the time i didnt get what they were talking about.hahaha but game play was nice!(: according to shuying, now is the 'Hua Yi's ' season so there are quite a few chinese dramas going on in esplanade. hmmm.. i've gained a new experience. you know the theatre was just a small stage in from of you.. not like the normal auditorium like our khoo audi. the sitting style is like watching a football match, but just that it is many times smaller. oh.. and nick shen is quite good looking eh(: maybe i should go and watch more chinese dramas to improve on my chinese haha anway not all chinese dramas are boring!

now back to MY GIRL(:

2007-02-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

i'm sure my chinese new year has been very boring as compared to all of yours. haha i only visited one house.. heh. aiya.. the same every year.. but my cousins and aunties will be there too. ohya, the HIGHLIGHT for this new year is i feel that my relatives are really generous. cos the least amount i receive from a person is $10 (: well as compared to pass years i ever get like 4 bucks 6bucks... hehe. so i feel a little richer this year=D
and... my mum bought me an oven during the new year. hahahaha. and a recipe book. heh. well i love to eat home made cookies.. but guess what. i have no baking experience apart from home econs? well.. but i'm still going to learn to bake=D i hope that i won't grow 10 times bigger though. hahaha.

we visited JL over the cny too(: he looks so much healthier(:

ohwell ohwell.. school has still been very sucky. this is my first year saying that school life sucks k! for all my years in sc, i always love going to sch. but not this year! i feel that i'm leading a mundane life with just work work work and MORE work. sigh. OKAY! i shan't think that way, there's more to life than just work(:

i just said my pledge today=D yeah man! i feel so happy now. lalalala. and for the next 3 days there will be some time to slack..hehe so...i'm going to watch MY GIRL(: but i really envy all the sec 1 to 3s cos they get to go for camps... but we sec 4s are so poor thing. I MISS OBS!!

2007-02-17T19:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

i'm finally here to update!!!=D
hmmm.. a lot of things had happened ever since i last updated. i always wanted to blog about them, but i never seemed to have the time to do so. now, its finally cny break so i have the time man!(:

a few weeks ago i went out with my fellow F, rui for lunch(: she wanted to introduce to me a jap restaurant at fareast, and it was good! all thanks to my F man! she bought me a ring for my birthday too!=D thanks man! love you lots!(:

recently i was busy with valentine's day stuff, cos i'm in special day com this year(: but once again, i have learnt new stuff. hahaha. oh and i discovered concourse! i mean i knew where concourse is and i knew that there is such a place, but i have never stepped into that place before. i thought it was one of those 'dead town', where only working people go. but no man! it's an interesting place to shop for party stuff. cos i like those paper bags and boxes so i got very excited.hahaha.

valentine's day was great(: those of u who remembered me on this very speacial day, i would like to say a very big THANK YOU(: all of you were so sweet!
ohyes.. a few days before v. day, it was quite sstressful. cos of the orders of flowers n balloons and the heart shaped pins for all the students can really drive us nuts! can u imagine doing 1000+ pins....-_-'' even my mum helped out. ahahaha. but quite fun la.
we were sooooo sick of the balloons!!! can u imagine pumping 400+ balloons and it just kept bursting each time? it was so frustrating that we have to calm each other down each time when they burst! hahaha. and we have 700+ roses not even including geberas to handle. heh very tiring, yet fulfilling(: and what almost made me teared was when i saw all the prefects were working so hard together to wrap up all the roses and some did the cutting. really.. it was a very heart warming sight(: we were all sitting along the coriddor working so hard to get things done. although some of the prefects were not in special day, but they still bothered to come so early to help out. what's there to say man... all i can say is I LOVE YOU ALL!

it feels kind of sad that whenever there are some special celebrations in sch like v. day and chinese new year. cos every occasion that I celebrate, will all be our last time celebrating in sc
=..( but this year's cny celebration was kind of sad.. cos it feels so short and like there's nothing much.

hehe but after that angela audrie cheryl yvonne charissa zhiying shiuan went to marina sq for lunch to celebrate ANGELA'S birthday!=D it was really fun cos we played true or dare! hahahaa and we did many embarrassing things! hello! i had to do tai chi at cafe cartel!?!! but it was fun la =D

after that we went to her house! i have not been to her house for ages! last time when we were in pri sch, during the sch hols i go to her house almost everyday! so fun man!

oh! and i had my reunion dinner yesterday(: yummylious food man!
and today.. i went to queensway to get my favourite addidas jacket!!=D after hunting for it high and low.. i finally found it! i'm sooo lucky k! cos i went to all the shops and i couldnt fiind. until i went to this shop and i saw the green version. so i just asked if they have the brown and orange one. i was feeling hopeless when i asked him.. but to my surprised, he said yes!hahaha and it was the one and only one left!!yeahness!

2007-02-03T10:51:00.000+08:00

it has been quite a long time since i last updated. there's no time to update and nothing much to update either... cos all i have now is work work work! sounds like i have no life right.. hahaha but what to do.. this is what sec4 is all about. i hope that i didn't miss out anyone=p

let's see erm.. oh! i met up with amelia on wed!(: it was an overdue treat from me la..hahaha. we went to ting tai feng to eat(: the fried rice was yummy! really filling too. oooo and there is a new crumpler(i think its new) that i like! its brown and a lil bit of orange(: how i wish there is some like 'crumpler trading' boohoo..
i MUST start running SOON ahhhhhhhhhhh! 800m heats is like a week away. MAD YOU KNOW! really mad! soooo soon! dont even give us valid time to practise! but aiya.. i just dont want to come in LAST, but i most probably will=( so sorry 4CO

ohyes.. hahaha i have LONGED wanted to say a very big Thank You to melissa chery B. enwei hoiguen jolyn cheryl T angela audrie amilyn elissa amelia meiping peihui charissa zhiying yenxi luan zheng fush clarissa grace emily shuying jennet jessica stephanie joanne c. sarah charmain
THANKS for all the wonderful presents, i love all of you lots!=D

2007-01-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

ohana~

hey guys! thank you so much for the flowers!=D they are all beautifully sitting in my room(: and angela, hoiguen. thanks a lot of the roses too(:

it feels like a long time ever since i last updated. sigh.. i was very busy over invest la.but now it's over! haha i don't even know if should be feeling happy or sad? cos that was my last invest. well..happy and sad?
after 3 monthsa of hard work.. it finally paid off!(: invest was such a SUCCESS! i remember how stressed each and every one of us was esp during the rehearsals in the audi. i remember i was really stressed during tech. rehearsal, cos i was thinking that we might not be able to do well for invest this year.and i'm sure a lot of people felt the same way too.. BUT! no way man! as the days get closer, we finally felt the urgency and decided to give in our best!
no doubt it was damn tiring..really tiring. but the satisfaction is definitely there!(: even now i feel weird without having to rush for prac. after school..hehe.

of cos, we had our dinner after invest! this year, we went to fish and co. parkmall, glass house(: you know, my FIRST invest dinner was at parkmall's fish and co. and my LAST invest is again the same place! how sad! maybe is good to end off this way? haha after that we even went to swensen's for dessert(:

now i miss invest=( i miss all the people too! you know we all went all the way to simei to get our costumes! i'm glad that through all the invest prac. i got to know some people better(: love all of you lots!!!

haha! look at lingen man!

HUANG SHANG JIA DAO!(:

my fellow gurad!(:

sec4s!(:

my ohana; my love.

2007-01-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

My Sweet 16(:

just wanna say a very BIG THANK YOU to all of you who acutally remembered my birthday=D
i'm really very touched to receive 51 birthday msges :.......) you guys are really sweet!!!

celene rui suying tiffany lauren c. renee jolyn thea elissa joy cherie denise jennet joanne T. joanne C. sarah melissa amanda clarissa fu shang mrs choo jolene zhi ying ehui jeanette laoshi zelei chiaern angela ruixian denyse jia en michelle audrie amilyn ohan jessica tara grace edwin april jocelyn sukwah jingrong weizhen yenxi nicole

THANK YOU SO MUCH for remembering my birthday(: i feel so blessed and loved cos of each and everyone of you!

To you guys, THANK YOU for spending my birthday with me=D

i shall do more 'Thanking' another time(: cos there is too much for me to thank. hahaha.
i had a wonderful time today!(:

Most importantly, i want to Thank God for guiding me through my 16 years of life and for blessing me with so many GOOD FRIENDS!(: Amen.

2007-01-13T11:53:00.000+08:00

ytd was shuying's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hey guys, Thank you very much for celebrating my birthday for me=D esp hoiguen, thank you so much for organising! xin ku le! hahaha

this week has been very tiring.. invest almost everyday.well..just a lil more to go!!=D we can do it man! but jennet and i have not thought of the 'dance'.=( help! i so do not want to do it!
sec4's life is already getting very stressful.. i have a pile of work to do! i am going to try to finish every thing today so that i wont need to touch on any books tmrw=D BUT i have tuition at 9am tmrw.. sucks right. what to do...

do u have a teacher who talks half way during lesson and then started singing? better still, she made up the song herself?! I DO! hahaahahahaha damn funny!
here comes the not so funny part of the week. ytd yingzhao and i were late for sec 1 duty briefing and we got SHOUTED at! we were supposed to meet at 4.45, but we went there at 4.46! and we were the FIRST TWO. so we got SHOUTED at for being late for 1 min?! so pissing! your watch faster not our problem right!
anyway... joy joy joy.. u are the highlight of my week! hahahaha ur pledge still makes me laugh when i think abt it. so as to achieve, happy..happiness.. peace er prosperity..peace and progress for our nation! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA YOU ARE SOOOOO CUTE!!!HAHAHAAHAHA

2007-01-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

sch has started! and i feel so bad. i'm seriously not in the mood to study and i have chem re's TMRW! and i totally forgotten about it until the 28th when i saw joanne studying! aHHHHH and i just started studying a few days ago! HELP! i really suck at CHEM! i prefer doing maths so much more!
oh! we have Mr Ang as our pe teacher! i was v happy he is funny! esp when he says stupid things! ahahhaa. BUT his PE lesson was sooo tiring compared to mrs lee's! die!
annndd.. we have HOMEWORK! ahhhh! so much to do. and for the next two weeks.. i'm going to have invest everyday! except sunday. ohman... i don't want to do that super embarrassing 'dance'. jennet and i shall not do it if we cannot think of any dance steps that is SUITABLE for both of us=D
deal!

Oh.. and ytd was sec 1 orientation. it was so tiring even though i was the game master! everyone was tired la. 3 cheers to sec 1 orientation com! and after that... we still had invest prac! can die...everyone was lying around in the hall when we had invest prac. well, but we still managed to pull it through... yeah!

2007-01-02T10:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

hahaha look we are playing GUESS WHO! my childhood game=)

HAHA ELISSA IS BEING BEATEN UP in front of my NICE poster! MY kim jung hoon!!

?? FLOWERS?haha where is elissa?? look carefully

PAY DAY!!
wahahaha what's peewee doing man!

2007 the year of a pig!
awww.. my lovely PEEWEE.
FIRE WORKS! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

us!(: our annual gathering=D
wahaha we are great artist!

CLUDO CLUDO CLUDO! i won twice out of 3 games!=D

sucks man.. sch is reopening tmrw. NOOOO!

i know you have your reasons,
but i just need some time.

2006-12-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

the last christmas dinner of the year!(: jack's place at bras basah.
pple, pls dont go to this jack's place... there are much nicer ones elsewhere like orchard or marina sq(: don't regret.
well afterall, the people i went for dinner with made the food taste not as bad as it really tasted=D if not.. i will rate it 1 out of 5.cos the service was bad too.

on thurs was ms heng's retirement dinner.i was supposed to be there for duty, but then i met emily and she said that her table was short of 3 pple so she invited me to join them.have thinking for quite long.. i pulled suba and rachel to go with me(: so 3 of us went to join them. we felt very awkward cos we were the only ones in uniform! but all we wanted was to watch and performance la.. so we didnt think so much.(although many pple still asked us for carpark coupons while we were eating.hahaha. ms leong suggested that we shld wear a jacket over! hahaha so no one will disturb us.heh) actually the prefects were there since 2pm to tie ribbons on the door gifts. i tell u!! we tied like 600 ribbons with the help of less than 10 pple! we are so cool la! hahaha we mananged to finish in 3hrs! it was the targeted time too!(:
well, it was a simple and nice dinner i should say. i love the song - my principal which the choir sang! i find it very sweet n touching.

My principal
the foundation of the school
how you did it, we don't have
a clue

The exercise book
that fell from the sky
as ms heng was passing by

The cement that came from the call
now we have a hall
school life is a ball

Goodbye's not the end
we will see you yet again
because you are our friend
our principal,
Ms Heng..

i love Ms Heng for who she is, she's the best principal! She made SC such a great school, and made me feel so proud to be a SC girl.

2006-12-29T01:17:00.000+08:00

okay photo blogging on thailand(:

opps, there were only 2 pple eating.. and look! we look like we have 4 pple or smth la! ahahahha. but rui says she dooesnt see what's wrong with that. HAHAHA. really my fellow F member mans xD

this was how i spent my christmas eve(: very simple.i was just watching some performance and sang christmas songs at central world(: i dont't even know who this singer is...but i think shld be quite a popular one.

Isn't this cool?! yellow and green taxi! haha Ms Heng sure loves this!(:

so cute right! i find it very interesting cos they serve the drink in a metal tin like that..hehe

hahaha we went with 2 and came back with 4=p
but i don't feel like i bought a lot?! maybe i didn't shop to my fullest?!HEH.

hey! i found a place in bangkok that sells things that are a little cheaper than chaktucak!(: see...is still good to do research on bangkok k! at least i found a place where most tourists don't know(: so stop laughing at me for doing research!
ohwell. this time i didn't get to shop much at MBK cos i went late and they were closing. actually it wasn't late...is they close early. only mangaed to buy a shorts fr there.=( how sad. and platinum mall too! i went there late...only bought 2 shirts. =(
ohohoh! and i finally found reese's fr bangkok's airport!wahahaha. but! i didnt know it's so ex! 20 over dolllars for a bag of chocolates?! but hahaha i still ended up buying it=D

2006-12-22T01:28:00.000+08:00

BASKETBALL DINNER @ Newyork Newyork(:

Christmas dinner at seoul garden,taka. (:

Christmas dinner with Amelia at paragon, ding tai feng(:

hey okay so here are all the pics i have(: i'm flying off to Bangkok today, and will be back on 26th. HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2006-12-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

they are friends whom i don't usually always go out with, but we will sure go out every year for christmas dinner!=D and....we can talk talk talk till the sky drops!hahaha. so on sunday when we had our christmas dinner at cafe cartel, we were talking abt lots of 'rubbish'! * winks hahaha. but is time for us to grow up right.. obviously we are really growing up.haha u 3 sure get what i mean la huh!=D see how our topics change throughout our years of friendship?hahaha... no longer childish stuff like crazy over seniors... or what not.. now is BETTER stuff. HEHE. aiya.. now i should talk about things which everyone can understand(:
so of cos after eating and talking at cafe cartel, we went to get my box then we went to some quiet place where we can all sit and talk somemore! hahaha. we sat on the floor at some super quiet place and took some pics and talked abt shoes! hahaha we looked quite unglam but who cares man..we were happy talking(:

yesterday, amilyn and i went to acs oldam hall to help out for the christmas outreach.it was to celebrate christmas with the scholars and at the same time welcome the new ones. we were invited by ms goh, cos she needed some help. amilyn got to leave early, so i was thinking ohno! i dont know anyone here. cos most of our sch's scholars all went back and i only know pple like fanwei and yingzhao. hahaha. but... i suddenly remembered there's still CHIA ERN!=D so i called her down to join us(: haha actually she was supposed to be there to enjoy, but in the end she helped us instead(: but we didnt even do much. all we did was just skewer the chicken, pour the satay sauce and butter the corn.hahaha. then we went to the chapel to join them in singing christmas carols. quite nice la, cos i love christmas carols!

yeah! christmas dinner with bballers tonight at NEW YORK NEW YORK!=D

2006-12-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

bball camp was quite fun(: the phrase'' YOU! SHUTUP AH!'' is now the biggest joke among the bballers! hahahahaha.. i still can't get over it!

this week seems to pass quite fast and in a 'simple' way, basically just had camp and two christmas dinner so far. one more for tmrw, which makes 3 christmas dinner for this week.

yesterday i had my christmas dinner with thea at billy bombers. hmmm.. somehow the food doesn't taste as good as before.. i don't know why. i mean compare that with jack's place, i prefer jack's place. or maybe i just ordered the 'wrong' food la.then had desert at bugis village cafe(: my favoruite sinful ice cream brownie with butterscotch sauce!(: yummy! haha is apparently now on my phone's wallpaper. hehe.

today, went out with some dis-co members to watch 'the holiday'(: so sad.. only 8 pple managed to turn up. anyway, the movie was quite nice la, i will give it 3.5 stars? well, but heard that the newspaper only gave it 2 stars.not too bad la. then we took NEOPRINTS!! ohman!! is like ages ago since i last took neoprints!! 2 years ago?! hahahaha.cool mans.i can't even remb when was the last time?! then we went exchanged presents at one empty corner.. hahaha we looked like some naughty kids cos after that we sat there and play cards.

hahaha. went to PIZZA HUT for dinner(: it was quite good. there were like girls wearing some santa claus costume n dancing in pizza to entertain the customers.. HHAHAHA i thought it was quite funny cos they dance were quite..erm...gross?hahaha.but they gave out some free stuff(:

this year i have quite a lot of christmas dinners : thurs was with thea. tmrw is with angela, cheryl and audrie. monday- christmas bbq. tues- bball christmas dinner. wed-cheryl, amilyn, enwei, hoiguen. thurs-amelia and fri i'm off to bangkok! what an exciting week ahead!=D

2006-12-11T14:16:00.000+08:00

i forgot to say that i got my 7390!(: i love my mummy!

okay, yesterday i woke up at some unearthly hour to send my maid to the airport. cos my mum was unable to come back from malaysia in time.
sending my maid off reminds me of the time when i was in p4. my maid went back for hols during my year end hols, and i stayed at home all alone! my parents went to work and i can't remember where were my brothers, but i know i was alone at home all day long. then some times my mum will buy lunch back for me or i'll go down to the market to buy my own lunch. eh i was only p4 then okay!(: oh! and i still can remember what i did for the whole entire month to pass my time! that was when i watch autumn story and i surf the net all day long about vicki zhao wei! HAHAHAHAHHA so lame!
so now my poor newphew is living without his aunty for 20 days.. hope he will 'survive'.

and... ytd i decided to cook fried rice for my family cos my another maid got to take care of that two naughty kids so she won't have time to cook! and guess what! i put too much water and the rice turned out to be like porridge! ohman..that reminds me of obs! so my maid had to cook porridge at night. hahaha.

2006-12-09T20:53:00.001+08:00

today's sermon was really good. it was about dreams.
dreams= decision -->dedication --> discipline
and pastor how was really funny too. HAHAHA lucy and lulu ohman. hahaha.

for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. -- matthew 6:21

NG SHUYING who say no photo?! just that i haven't blog okay! hahahaha but only have a few.

sentosa was quite fun although the weather was quite bad. and we did many things to pass time. like play tai ti(sp?) haha but it was fun! and snap too! hahaha we were screaming like lunatics la! mad lor.. everytime we snap we screamed! hahaha.
we went cycling and played bball too! and we even ate ben and jerry's! yummy! MUDSLIDE! try it man!
and i discovered nice food in sakae. EBI FRY! YUM!!! must try!(: it seems more like an eating outting huh.hehehe.

okay just some pics that i took...

2006-12-06T23:32:00.001+08:00

i feeling v tired today. actually i have been feeling very tired for the past few days.. have been doing a lot of christimas shopping..so tiring. but it's still nice(: although i am really going BROKE=( i'm almost done with my shopping la, cos i won't have time next week cos of camp and the following week will be packed with christmas dinners. nice nice(:

ytd i went to the supermaket with lingen to buy all the food needed for camp. wah..we were so embarrassed la.. we look la some greedy pigs. HAHA. and later on looked like so market aunty carrying all the stuff. it was damn heavy!!! but we are strong!(:
then went i walked around orchard to look for presents as well as the travel guide on bangkok at boarders. then met up with amilyn and did more shopping.
AND i finally bought a new wallet!! wah.. after like how long. actually i didnt know if i should buy it. so far after seeing so many wallets for a like sooo many months, i finally found one that i quite like. but it costs 42bucks! after asking cheryl and amilyn for their opinions, and they were v supportive about of me buyubg it( cos knowing me, they think that i will regret not buying it.), SO i bought it!(: i'm even more broke now!!

today, went with cheryl and meiping to vivo city. meiping was invited to go for these acuvue promotion thing where u get free contacts. acuvue has a new type of contacts called the oasys. quite comfortable but damn ex. hehe but i have one pair of free contacts(:

then went with cheryl to expo for the john little sale! haha the stuff there are quite resonable, managed to buy some stuff there. later on, we went to the new ikea at tampanies. ohman.. it was SOO far. but cos cheryl was soooo excited and keen about her lucky draw so she dragged me all the way there! cos she thought she will win the FIRST PRICE, $10000!! fat hope. hahaha. GUESS WHAT! when we finally found our way there, she read the terms and conditions again and you know what!! she realised that the LUCKY DRAW HAS ENDED!!! hahahahahaha.... she was sooooo sad. there goes her $10000 hehehe

2006-12-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

2006-12-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

i finally uploaded the pics we took at east coast the other day.
haha we celebrated ohan's bady!(:

HAPPY ohan!

look at her HAIR!? haha so gross...=p

hmmm.. so what have i been doing recently? erm.. let's see, i went to church on sat, then on sunday onwards i went shopping for xmas presents!! i am B-R-O-K-E!!! but ohwells.. is always the joy of giving isn't it(: shopping for presents is indeed very fun, but of cos have to also constantly tell myself that i am not shopping for MYSELF, but for OTHERS! hahaha that is where discipline comes comes in..hahaha

more shopping for the next few days!!

2006-12-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

ALL THANKS TO CHRIS FOR HELPING ME WITH MY BLOG!!=DD THE STUPID THING IS NOT COVERING MY LAYOUT NOW! <3
i feel so good after talking to so many pple on msn! can't even remember when was my last time talking for so long on msn and to so many pple at once. i guess is really time for me to catch up with friends.. during sch days we hardly have the time to talk.. now it's finally hols!
moreover i think next year will be even harder to spend time with friends.. cos we will be busy studying and all so better talk as much as possible now(:
hmm.. heard that a lot of pple lost their stuff too. like their PHONES. so sad...but theirs are like stolen..mine is DROPPED OUT from my pocket:( i still miss my phone!

i feel better after making my decisions, but i hope i'm not doing the wrong thing.

2006-11-28T01:30:00.000+08:00

time to update!
hehe new christmas layout. but i can't take that STUPID blogger toolbar away!!

hmm..let's see what has been having for the past few days. i went for a wedding dinner at westine hotel, i thought that since i have not been for a wedding dinner since don't know when, so i decided to accompany my parents. and i thought the food should be quite good too. haha. but well... there was nothing special about the food, and i was kind of bored cos i don't know anyone there. ohwells.
and i went to look at phones. i still want my 7390 nokia black flip phone. actually my mum bought it already, but she wants to put it at the shop to see if anyone is interested in buying. if not it will be mine(: i still miss my phone very much, i'm used to turning my phone(7370) whenever i'm bored or when i'm holding it.. so it feels kind of weird now. okay i'm not going to think of what's in my phone...

i'm sick of subway. omg.. i have been staring at the subway website for like hours. looking at which is the best for bball camp?! i did call them up and the man confused me abt don't know how many foot long is one bread and don't know what rubbish. i'm still confused. nvm, i shall wait for his email.
i bought my books already, and it's time for me to start reading them. i will. I MUST.
ohno...is less than a month to christmas!! and i have not made my christmas list. HELP! i must hurry!! i don't have so much time to shop and all, moreover, i have a whole long list to go! and i have a whole kangpong of friends to write cards to! so fun! i LOVE christmas shopping, BUT no time =(
okay okay one thing at a time.. i will get it done!

2006-11-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

so much of wanting to keep the msges in my phone for as long as possible. know what?
i lost my phone. i lost my phone in the cab.
i'm was still having my phone in the cab and if i never remember wrongly, i put it in my pocket and never touch it again. but when i reached home, i couldn't find it anymore. how sad.. howhow sad. is not like i carelessly left it somewhere.
i was enjoying myself so much in the afternoon with oiyi, vivien and eunice at east coast. we went bowling and cycling and after that went to parkway parade with oiyi to shop for mrs canham stuff. then the devastating part came. i thought i could enjoy myself after my re's, but now i don't think so. my mood is totally ruined.
actually i'm not sad over the fact that my phone is gone, but over the fact that the things in the phone which matters a lot to me are gone!! =...(

can't you just let me be happy for long...?

2006-11-22T11:47:00.000+08:00

I PASSED MY RE'S=D

hey guys, this entry is dedicated to all of you okay!
Deep down from my heart, i really wanna thank all of you for constantly encouraging me and for believing in me. if not because of that, i wouldn't have been able to perserve for so long. And till the very day, Thanks for flooding my phone all the sweet and lovely wishes that u all have sent to me! elissa(despite being late for training.haha) and celene for the sweets and chocolates(: it was really very heartwarming n motivating to receive such msges just right before the papers. so i wouldnt have been able to make it without you all. And even after my results, thanks for rejoicing with me! The msges shall be kept in my phone for as long as possible. i just can't bear to delete any of them. Everyone.. really really thank you so much. i really don't know how to express my appreciation. but please do know that i really appreciate every single one of ur thoughtfulness. you all should know who u are(:

Not forgetting the teachers of course! without them, i wouldn't have made it too. Also, i wanna Thank God for blessing me with so many good friends around me. And seeing me through all this while and for guiding me through my papers. i'm sure you have your reasons for making me take re's and i know it's of good reasons. so maybe taking re's aren't a bad thing afterall, cos i understand the subjects better. and guess what?! i appreciate Geog better now(:
(Dear God, thanks for answering my prayers.)

2006-11-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

well...i going to be acting as a guard with JENNET for next years invest. omg...pls pls i hope i won't start laughing once i see jennet's face. HAHAHA. come to think about it is already funny enough. lol. well..... at least we are NOT the CONCUBINE! phew.... stop laughing.
my group's act is the most cheena one i guess. is those emperor kind of show..hahaha but i think will be quite funny. get excited pple! hahaha.

ohman...i just found out that even our one of our security guards in our sch is leaving... what is this man!? it seems like things are falling apart because ms heng leaving...

2006-11-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

i have a bad news. the meepok uncle passed away last night. ohman... is really saddening to hear this. it seems like everyone is really leaving sc. WHY?
so many familiar faces are going to be missing. i hope things won't feel very different next year, or it will be a very miserable year.

2006-11-14T20:07:00.000+08:00

BIRTHDAY GIRL! FINALLY 15 HAHA

weehee... it was so nice having dinner with so most of the bballers again! we went to cafe cartel to have clarissa's bday dinner! when was the last time we had dinner together like that? last year's xmas? ohman.. that reminded me of my sad xmas dinner at fish and co. i was feeling sick then. anyways, ytd was fun. hahaha i laughed a lot.. yx's PORKCHOP hahahaha. and DIASO is now my one of my favourite places xD bought some stuff from there.

we shall have another dinner together again! that will probably be..... CHRISTMAS DINNER! =D

2006-11-11T18:31:00.000+08:00

The Way Home is my favourite korean movie! remember...we all watched this when we were in sec 1?! during one of our CE the teachers made us go to the khoo audi to watch this video?
or maybe u remb this movie by CHOCO PIE? haha.

actually, i have watched this 3 times. once was in khoo audi, the other was on my way to KL, on the bus they had this tv to every chair and they had this movie in it so i watched it. and the 3rd one was yesterday on channel U. despite watching it 3 times, it still touches me deeply.
i love the granny so much! she is so cute and so motherly. how i wish i have such a granny..i'll take very good care of her!
a very meaningful movie which everyone should watch!

2006-11-07T20:19:00.000+08:00

yeah! i have just finished watching Gong yesterday! actually i could have finished it earlier, but i was just controlling myself to watch as slow as possible cos i dont want it to end!! my heart hurts so much whenever lu jun looks sad. booooohoooo. really damn sad! he has this really painful look.
i bought the soundtrack too(: AND! today i just bought KIM JUNG HOON's album=D the only reason why i bought it was bcos of HIM and for his giant poster! haha. i have not heard any of his songs in his album before and i just bought it. hehe. you must be thinking that i'm mad. eh, i hardly buy cds without listening to the songs in it first k. unless i really like that person very much(: and now, his giant poster is taking pride in room! wahahaha.

Gong is now one of my favourite korean dramas. after my re's, i'll watch all over again, but this time in korean=D i love you sarah, for lending it to me!

I LOVE YOU KIM JUNG HOON!

2006-11-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

My most respected principal and her barney (:

My favourite green!

SPECIAL DAY task group!

my buddies!

DIS-co!

i'm back from prefect's seminar!
hmm it was alright. the accomodation was very good, but i feel that this year's seminar is kind of useless. i didn't learn much as compared to past two years. but maybe is bcos as what cammie said, i have attened 'too many' already. well, maybe. cos maybe to the new prefects they have learnt a lot. and as usual, i don't like the forum part of seminar. this year they make it different. usually we just voice out, but then now they printed out the problems, so not as 'exciting'.(haha is just like a debate) but still, i always get very annoyed and angry during the forum. so pissing!
but i laughed SOOO much too okay! hahahahahahaa. stupid cheong fu shang! her laughter is damn gross la! hahahaaha. we were drawing during seminar(shhh...) and she reminded me of the kidnap thing at marina bay. OMG..we tried controlling our laughter so much cos ms heng was conducting the seminar at that time! is just like the repeat of elissa and i during one of ms ng's lessons where we were laughing at SPARE ME MY LIFE! HAHAHAHAHA. sheesh man! Thank God lingen was sitting in between the both of us or we'll just die.

we were agin very well fed.(haha sounds like animals) had a lot of tea time and the food was good. er.... my the hygiene was B-A-D. more than 10 people fell ill towards the last day! so we suspect was the food that caused all these. on the last day's breakfast everyone hardly ate anything. and we had to cancel the sight seeing tour cos the teachers need to send them to the doctor. and 4 people needed injection. POOR THING! and we had a bus with all the sick people and the other with all the non sick ones. and during the last day's lunch, there was a sick table too. they were only given plain porridge. but they hardly even touch their food.... they were all like piling on each other. ms heng saw and said ' how miserable'. haha.

ohyes! ms heng is SOOOO cute!haha we gave her a barney toy and she was so happy and she started pressing the stomach to listen to the barney song again and again. hahaha. and hugged it on the bus too! =D during meals she was v funny too! she took her fork and spoon and bang on the table saying '' i want food!'' hahahaha. hmmm and we did shopping. one thing good abt this year's shopping was we have a longer time.. like 2hrs. BUT the mines fair has nothing much!! and they put us there for like two days! so unfair..everytime when we get to go to a better shopping centre, we have so little time. now we have so much more time, but the shopping centre is lousy.okay okay shan't complain. is good that we even get to shop(: fush fang lingen and i went shopping together(: oh! and so many of us dash into FOS! malaysia's FOS is so much better. nicer stuff.
i'm sorry guys, i didn't manage to get anything for anyone. there really isn't much to buy there. they don't even have converse shop there okay.
btw, photos are up. ( under links, go to precious memories) there are two albums.

my last prefects semianr;
~ohana

2006-10-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the great eastern run. how i wish i did participate in the run. seeing them completing their race with the great sense of satisfaction and accomplishment, it makes me regret not asking my mum again to let me run too. moreover, there's 5K this time. nvm, i shall run in next year's marathon. anyway, congrats all runners(: well done!
the coolest part is when the mc announced that SC was actually running for MS HENG!

fat chees trying to do ballet but obviously FAILED. haha eh! but we tried!=D
haha so... we decided to do something simpler(:

GUESS WHO!?!!! (:

and we had 3co's class party at night(: it was nice to be able to gather together to eat and play(: and most of the people turned up! haha it was fun playing SPEED! screaming like mad.hehehe.

alright. i'll be leaving for prefect's seminar (KL) later. we'll be back on friday.
i'm actually looking forward to seminar..but after knowing that i have to do a presentation on SCENTA, my mood was ruined. but nvm! i should see this as a challenge, and also a chance. cos this is my last seminar, so i should grab every opportunity and enjoy myself to the fullest! but of cos, my amath and geog stuff will have to accompany me there too.

i always see seminar as a time for prefects to bond, and also a so called " booster'' for everyone of us. or for me at least.
i'm sure by this time of the year, most of us have encountered many problems along the way, and sometimes even feel like giving up. and so through seminar, we shall once again be assured that in whatever we do, there will always be 56 other prefects behinds us.
ohana!

do u know that it really hurts to know.
sometimes i would rather not know.
but still, i won't force you.

2006-10-28T11:10:00.000+08:00

we had ms heng's farewell yesterday. i felt so sad that she's leaving, but at the same time felt so heartwarming to see so many ex SC girls coming back to SC from all over the place just to bid farewell to ms heng. i'm sure, ms heng was really touched.
Ms Heng has always been someone i'm really proud of and someone whom i respect. whenever i go to other sch's for investiture, i always see the difference between ms heng and that sch's principal. ms heng is still the best!
Ms Heng had already given her all, and that's why we have such a good school-SC.
i proud to once had Ms heng as my principal, i'm proud of SC, i proud to be a SC girl.
"once a SC girl, always a SC girl." do u believe in that? i do.

but at least i will still get to go on prefect's seminar with Ms Heng(: i must take a picture with her and i want to try hugging her! people told me that she is very nice to hug.hahaha

you are the only one
there's no one else like you
you've touched our lives in many many ways
SC's cool because of you
you are special special
Ms Heng you are special
very special in our hearts always
you are special special
Ms Heng you are special
special in every single way!

other than that.. i'm really sad that SO many other teachers are leaving us as well. i really don't want Mrs Canham to leave...=(

2006-10-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

sigh.. tmrw is gonna be a very sad day - Ms Heng's farewell. on top of that, a lot of other teachers are leaving as well. how sad. i seriously wonder why so many teachers are leaving? both the sec and pri. why?! it's such a pity for them to leave. and those teachers who are leaving are good teachers.

prefects! hope we'll do well during Ms Heng's farewell tmrw!(=
my throat is going to die soon.. sang too much today...

2006-10-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

went to town with taw today(: after that i went for charissa's bday dinner at jack's place. hahaha she is so lucky.. many surprises all planned for her okay! they are even staying overnight at a hotel to celebrate her bday(her bday is actually tmrw)

BIRTHDAY GIRL(:

hehe this is what 3 of us bought for her(:

nothing much happened this week. just basically enrichments.. and CHEM -.-
sec 4 graduation duty is over. thank God that everything went on smoothly. THANK YOU so much prefects, for always being so co operative! you all are always so efficent! so wasn't so worried. but now i'm worried about monday! i hope that the pri sch prefects are as efficent and the pri sch kids are co operative! omg..i really cannot imagine how the morning rehearsal is going to be like. chaotic??
NONONO think positive! we shall see on monday. everyone.. pls help to shut the pri sch kids up when they get very noisy okay! hahaha

ohya..on fri i jennet shiyun and i went over to the pri sch to do flag raising cos we needed to brief the prefects and the teachers about mon's rehearsal. wah..talking to their prefects half my energy already gone..imagine the students..?!

but it was nice to be back there again to have flag raising. everything looks and sounds so familiar. there are still trs standing on stage to look at the people singing.. they still use the piano..they still stamp their foot when the tr says ATTENTION. but then! the prefect who was raising the sch flag didn't hold the string tight enough it think.. cos after the sch song ended the flag dropped. omg.. my heart dropped too! so scary. and we waited till the they give out the model pupil award and the cleaness class award. ahahah good old memories.

2006-10-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

Career quest was interesting. I like to attend this kind of workshops so much more than SPA!!! But this year’s spa was much better as compared to last year. I guess is just because my group tried making it interesting for ourselves. in the end, we were the champions=D

fine dinning was fun! HAHAHAHA. omg..i laughed like mad today! hahahha i was in a fun group that's why. HOHOHO. wanna know something.. fang poked a cucumber using her fork, and then she said CHECK UP and the cucumber flew off her fork. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA! and the presenters were quite interesting too.. although quite lame at times but still quite funny. and the way fang and i ate the bread was wrong!! hahaha. i wanna go again!

fingers crossed

2006-10-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

this week has been hard on me. perhaps, i should call it a challenge?
my limits and emotions were being challenged. have i won? no. certainly not.
i'm filled with mix feelings.. lots of mix feelings.. i'm very sorry to all my teachers. i seriously feel that i'm such a let down..
i love all my teachers.. love them to bits. they went all way out to help me, to give me a chance. i'm deeply touched for what they have done and i truely aprreciate it very much.
i feel really terrible after a teacher talks to me...

and also, not forgetting all my friends who have always been so concerned and get so worried for me. i feel really blessed to have such great friends like you all. this is really something money cannot buy.
'' are u alright?" " are u okay?" "eh, you okay or not''
i hear all these words at least once a day..
dear friends, you all are my motivation and inspiration, thank you SO SO much for always being there for me. don't worry, i'm feeling better than the past few days(:
i love all of you!
you all are my greatest comfort

it really hurts to know..

2006-10-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

it all depends.. it all depends... it all depends....
my fate will soon be known.

2006-10-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

hey everyone, thanks for all the encouragements. i'm alright la(:

these few days have been so relaxing.. suddenly feel that i have a lot of time. i take my own sweet time doing whatever i wanna do, cos i tell myself that i have "all the time in the world" for now. simply no hurry.. just take my time.
i didn't feel like going anywhere, so i spent some of my time at home. i was just thinking when was the last time i actually stayed home the whole entire day? i couldn't recall when was the last time.
i spent my time packing my book shelves, watching vcds, tried to play my old piano books, digging out old memories such as letters etc. actually i think is really good to once in a while, spend some time at home and look around your room. you'll bound to discover something new.
during school days you might not have the chance to really look at the things in your room, but just keep piling things up. it feels quite meaningless that way. i have even found some of my projects that we did in sec 1. haha quite interesting(:

today, i went to watch a muscial called superstar with angela, audrie and cheryl. it was put up by singapore poly students and it was for charity. a musical worth watching(: it was quite nice and funny. their songs were original, and the people could really dance and sing very well. saw some familiar faces there too. even met ms julie wee.
after that we went for supper.

it was nice having the chance to catch up with friends whom we do not often talk to in sch, as we are always busy with our own stuff.
perhaps now is a good time to do some catching up with friends whom we have sort of ''lost contact'' during the exam period.

everyone have fun(: